No visable Clit

PhoenixGurl2016 · July 18, 2017, 11:24:21 PM

I don't see my clit, the area where it is supposed to be is flat solid. I don't know if it is supposed to be this way without a labaplasticy or if it healed over.....but I think I can feel it under the skin.... sigh another issue, It could be way worse.

It looks like I am going to have to seek revision surgery for a citloplasty and labiaplasty. I don't have to and can live without it if I need to. I had to do what I had to do last year with in the time and resources I had. Yes it was limiting and puts me where I am now, but it was basically was a do or do not situation. It is depressing how I look and having to need to under go revision, but it is way better then not having my vagina. I can live without under going revision as it's not like I have a partner or am sexually active where it would be a red flag, but as I mentioned it is a little depressing. Also there is no way I can afford it and I am not sure insurance would cover it. It puts me in an interesting position though. I don't know what I am going to do or even if I can do anything, but I am so glad to be rid of that thing and the poison from it caused. I can finally live and be me even if I don't look good down there and have an "incomplete" vulva. I am still free.

Ps. I'm waiting to hear back from my doctor, I had to send him more pictures

TinaVane · July 19, 2017, 01:02:55 AM

Some vaginas have flat clits tho or so I thought

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warlockmaker · July 19, 2017, 02:06:00 AM

Each surgeon has their own views of how it should look. Have you seen the pic of wall of different looking vaginas. Its been posted before and there is such a variety. I have seen 1,000 plus cis vaginas and around 20 plus post op ones. The post op ones are PAI, Suporn, Chett, Kamoil and in Australia Andrews. They tend to be very similar, and the clitoris vary in size and location. Generally, the post ops have a larger clitoris than cis when it is not sexually aroused. The important issue is the sensivity and then orgasms.Do check with your surgeon and be blunt about these questions. BTW who was your surgeon?

PhoenixGurl2016 · July 19, 2017, 02:24:31 AM

Quote from: warlockmaker on July 19, 2017, 02:06:00 AM
Each surgeon has their own views of how it should look. Have you seen the pic of wall of different looking vaginas. Its been posted before and there is such a variety. I have seen 1,000 plus cis vaginas and around 20 plus post op ones. The post op ones are PAI, Suporn, Chett, Kamoil and in Australia Andrews. They tend to be very similar, and the clitoris vary in size and location. Generally, the post ops have a larger clitoris than cis when it is not sexually aroused. The important issue is the sensivity and then orgasms.Do check with your surgeon and be blunt about these questions. BTW who was your surgeon?

Dr. Schechter was my surgeon.

I understand that but it is completely flat. I feel it under the skin and I haven't had much luck with an orgasm which has been really frustrating. It's made even the more depressing when a friend of mine who had the same surgeon three weeks after me has already had one. I am supposed to talk to him in 9 hours so we will see.

mm · July 19, 2017, 11:40:16 AM

PhoenixGurl2016, I hope you have a success meeting with Dr. Schechter. He should give you some answers to your questions and problems. Keep asking until you are satisfied.

PhoenixGurl2016 · July 19, 2017, 04:31:01 PM

Spoke with my surgeon this morning. He says that sometimes the scar tissure heals over and a simple out patience process is needed to remove it. He also said that it would help with sensitivity. I am moving forward with that, I should be gone about 3 days to do that. All I have to do is set a date.

PhoenixGurl2016 · July 25, 2017, 07:55:31 PM

Update #441:

Two updates:

1. Last Friday my surgeon's office called me to request my insurance information for the corrective procedure I mentioned before. I gave to them. Then today they called me an told me that my insurance wouldn't cover it and I would have to pay out of pocket. I told them go ahead and they are going to send me an outline. I have to say that I am not surprised at this and am a little down because I know I can't and will not be able to afford it, but at least now I know and can move forward when I can. It's not l am sexually active or interested, however it would be something I would like to feel again someday. Unlike GCS though, there is no need for it because of crippled dyphoria. I think my plan is to continue forward with paying off my credit card, then use that credit to get that done. I'm predicting that will not be until next year though. And you know what? In ok with it, I got my vagina and everyday I'm blessed even if I can't get an orgasm and my clit isn't the sensitive.

I love life and am 180% where I was at last year, I didn't see it coming. Everyday is a blessing. Even if I can't orgasm.

warlockmaker · July 25, 2017, 09:27:31 PM

I'm suprised that he wants to charge you for his mistake. I'm more litigenous than most but it just does not seem right legally nor ethically.

Rex · October 02, 2017, 05:24:57 AM

Hi phoenixgurl,

I'm ftm and was browsing for post op info. But then I got nosey and started reading everything:)
I just wanted to say that my cis female girlfriend has no visible clit. I have been with other girls that have the same but my girlfriends is really hidden and honestly her vagina looks perfectly normal. Don't get me wrong it's harder to stimulate her but just adds to the fun. Don't worry I'm sure you look wonderful

Aibhilín · October 06, 2017, 01:46:44 PM

Quote from: Rex on October 02, 2017, 05:24:57 AM
Hi phoenixgurl,

I'm ftm and was browsing for post op info. But then I got nosey and started reading everything:)
I just wanted to say that my cis female girlfriend has no visible clit. I have been with other girls that have the same but my girlfriends is really hidden and honestly her vagina looks perfectly normal. Don't get me wrong it's harder to stimulate her but just adds to the fun. Don't worry I'm sure you look wonderful

Isn't a 'barely visable clit' in cis women just a small clit? I think for post-op women, the concern of having no visible clit is usually whether or not there actually IS a clit. As is the case with me, at least. From what i've read, cis women with small clits have all the nerve endings focused in a tiny area, making it highly sensitive.

Dena · October 06, 2017, 05:24:57 PM

Quote from: Aibhilín on October 06, 2017, 01:46:44 PM
Isn't a 'barely visable clit' in cis women just a small clit? I think for post-op women, the concern of having no visible clit is usually whether or not there actually IS a clit. As is the case with me, at least. From what i've read, cis women with small clits have all the nerve endings focused in a tiny area, making it highly sensitive.

Lay down and get in a relaxed position. Next think of something you consider sexy and get turned on. You should have a feeling like your penis is swelling and this is the result of your clit responding to your sexual feeling. Now feel free to explore with your finger and find the actual location of the clit.

Mine is totally invisible because of the nature of my surgery and I though for years I didn't have one but I could occasionally feel the swelling. When I understood there was one and how the surgery was preformed, it was fairly easy to locate it.

Aibhilín · October 10, 2017, 04:25:50 PM

Quote from: Dena on October 06, 2017, 05:24:57 PM

Lay down and get in a relaxed position. Next think of something you consider sexy and get turned on. You should have a feeling like your penis is swelling and this is the result of your clit responding to your sexual feeling. Now feel free to explore with your finger and find the actual location of the clit.

Mine is totally invisible because of the nature of my surgery and I though for years I didn't have one but I could occasionally feel the swelling. When I understood there was one and how the surgery was preformed, it was fairly easy to locate it.

I appreciate the reply, Dena, but I really don't think theres anything to find. I haven't touched that region for months since the last time I did it, I felt nothing but mild discomfort. Even if there is something there, it's completely covered and inaccessible anyway. It's a complex surgery, it's a miracle to me that so many of us come out the other end functional.

Dena · October 10, 2017, 05:49:53 PM

I am not sure how it works in your country, but here you can request a surgical report that will tell you how you are put together. For years I didn't think I had anything and I recently attempted to obtain my report only to discover after about 30 years the hospital decided to destroy it. Fortunately I located a report from somebody who had surgery about 2 years latter and that gave me the clues I need to understand how I was put together. What I have felt for years makes sense.

I have access to a surgeon who could have provided this information but I wasn't aware of it at the time.

Aibhilín · October 10, 2017, 05:57:18 PM

Interesting. I'm in the UK and had my surgery with a UK surgeon, I've seen pictures of his 'work' and the ones that I saw had visible clitoris' which is what makes me think i'm somewhat of an anomaly with the exception of another person who's post I read a while back, she seemed to be in a similar situation. I'm going to see my surgical nurse soon anyway, so i'll try and suck as much out of her as I can.

PhoenixGurl2016 · November 04, 2017, 11:40:31 PM

Quote from: warlockmaker on July 25, 2017, 09:27:31 PM
I'm suprised that he wants to charge you for his mistake. I'm more litigenous than most but it just does not seem right legally nor ethically.

I don't think it was a mistake, I just think it was how I healed. Not much I can do there.

MeTony · November 05, 2017, 01:14:14 AM

I appologize if someone is sensetive, stop reading now.

When I gave birth to my youngest son, he was too big and my vagina ruptured straight over my clitoris. I've got scar tissue over it. It took some time to find it, and relearning, it's not as sensetive, but mechanically rubbing your clit won't do much without fantasies turning you on.

I am pretty much asexual because of dysphoria. Parts are missing. It's amazing we got two kids.

Tony

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