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Even though I know it shouldn't be like that...

Started by LiliFee, July 26, 2017, 03:23:05 AM

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LiliFee

I'm post-op and happy! So let's have a chit-chat about being post-op and the change in self-perception...

Here's the thing: I see a girl in the mirror now! Even though I wear something over my underwear, thus fully taking my lady-parts out of view: something has changed. Fundamentally...

I've had my passing privilege for a while now, I never get clocked so my mirror image did already 'fit the bill' for a bit. Even though, before my surgery, there were still those dark eyes staring back at me, as if I felt like a fake. This has completely changed now! It's no longer a half-half, an inbetween looking back at me, but a woman! (or girl, but at 31 I've legally passed that mark, haha :) )

Did any of you experience such a shift in perception as well? With all of the publicity of trans* and non-binary folks out there, it almost feels wrong to experience such feelings. We were assigned male at birth (or female if the other way around), it's almost politically incorrect to state that my own perception about being a woman is still intrinsically linked with having a vagina. But still, this is what it feels like for me...

How do you all see / feel this??
–  γνῶθι σεαυτόν  –

"Know then thyself, presume not God to scan, The proper study of mankind is Man"
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warlockmaker

I never had RLE, as for me I did not want to live a lie. After srs, ffs and ba I had my first chance to be a female. There was so much more to learn before I felt fully comfortable. Now 18 months later I find passing easily but now in Bangkok I identify as the 3rd gender and proud. Im at peace and happy.
When we first start our journey the perception and moral values all dramatically change in wonderment. As we evolve further it all becomes normal again but the journey has changed us forever.

SRS January 21st,  2558 (Buddhist calander), 2015
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Gail20

I've been out for 10+ years but will finally undergo GCS in 2 weeks. I thought my sense of self had pretty much stabilized years ago in a place that was something just short of feeling totally female and I was OK with that. I did not expect more. I was wrong. I'm already noticing a change in my perception of myself. I'm now seeing myself as totally female. I did not think that I would ever quite get to that place but I see it.  Hopefully the emotional and physical impact of GCS wont hurt this new preception . 
"friends speak for you when you can't speak for yourself" :)
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EmmaLoo


I had, and described, a very similar experience post-GRS and it totally caught me off guard. It was quite overwhelming in a lot of respects. Much of that came from a sense of finality after a very long journey. Beyond that, I would agree with you completely. There is a realignment post-surgery that goes far deeper than the physical changes and it's very liberating.


Seriously, I'm just winging it like everyone else. Sometimes it works, other times -- not so much. HRT 2003 - FFS|Orch 2005 - GCS 2017 - No Regrets EVER!
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