I just joined here yesterday because I feel a need to understand my feelings of genital dysphoria better. I have been thinking about seeing a counselor, but honestly I'm scared to death. I'm married and have kids. I don't want to think about what will happen if I bring this all out in the open. Coming here in the anonymity of the internet is less scary and maybe a first step, but I know eventually it all has to come out in the open.
My wife knows that I have struggled with accepting my genitalia in the past, and a few times attempted some dangerous things to cope with it. But I don't think she understands that the intensity of those feelings have remained. I still want a solution to this, I want relief and comfort with my own body.
I don't want to struggle with this forever, but I'm really scared of the cure being as bad as the cause. I don't want my kids messed up, I don't want to hurt my wife, I don't want my career damaged, etc.