I realize I am relatively new around here but I consider my outing myself (at least virtually) on this forum a big first step on my transition. I have been in stealth mode for a long long time. My plan all along was to get my letter for HRT and I did that by seeing an idiot therapist who frankly did nothing for me. All I got was the text book *how do you feel or you know you will need to deal with society or here is a situation and what do you do when.....* and the occasional *you should know better your an extremely smart guy..... sorry gal*. And I quit going. I got my letter which is what i was after. I have kept my feelings and desires bottled up for so long I am at a point where I want to explode. I need to take an international trip and I will be in guy mode while gone and I must maintain my male persona. Its as if I am or have been living in two worlds. How do I cope with this? Be strong? What if I said I am tired of being strong... How do I cope?
Sorry about the rant as I said in a post in another section I am too sensitive right now. My brain hurts..
-BA
