Is love really blind ? And can be find in hopeless place
I'm from very very transphobic / homophobic place and being in relationship is my last concern right now my first goal is to escape to safety
But I want to talk about relationships and being trans here
I'm young , cute and nice
everything in place except I'm trans
Guys treat me as sex toy once they know I'm trans and calling me names
Refuse to go out with me in public because they shame to be seeing with me from their friends or family
( also going on dates when you are trans is very risky here for lgbt and trans so I don't go on dates because I'm afraid to be arrest by the police for being LGBT )
You would think the guys who treat me this way are straight guys but no not only straight guys even Bi guys are the same
I'm feminine and I pass
But I found no matter what the guy sexual orientation he still treat me bad and with disrespect and always misgender me basically 99.9% of the guys here are transphobic even if they Gay or bi
I cannot love or being with someone who see me as guy but I found out everyone here see me as guy no matter what
Which hurt me the most I spent so many years and go through a lot of pain and tears to look like I'm now I cannot accept this
I loved some guys only to found they were just using me even one of them said you are a boy and you will always be one stop trying to be woman ( he is bi ) later I found out he was with me just to make his ex jealous
I thought being pretty and nice will get me a good man but I was wrong
I hold the idea of ( love exist ) for so long but again I was wrong ( at lease not in this hopeless place )
Now I don't believe love exist anymore I hate how guys treat me and it emotionally scar me
Now I'm scared when I escape I will be treated the same way
I always read and hear in lgbt friendly countries it's easier for trans girl to be in loving relationship
No matter how I deny it to protect myself from being hurt deep inside I know this what I really want but I know for fact finding love along with living safely as trans girl are impossible In this hopeless place
So no we did not found love in hopeless place
( if my topic in wrong section feel free to move it to right one , thanks )
