Were I born female I have no idea of the happiness I might or might not have known, or the mayhem that I might have caused. I never was "one of the crowd" in the first eight grades of Catholic school and I might have been the meanest, most ornery girl in school because I don't tolerate a lot of negative stuff very well.
Beneath all of that was a romantic who took center stage in my teens and gave me ideations that most boys my age avoided, things like going steady. When I was 15 I wanted nothing more than to be married, but being a guy with the heart of a girl was its own conundrum. That one sure was hard to live with!
I was backward because I worshipped girls. I was a good date, considerate and courteous, if not courtly, in my manners. I was actually breathing-in the fragrance of a girl, perfume or not, touching, holding hands, talking, listening, absorbing.
I had more problems than I care to discuss because I was born transsexual. Now I am who I always was on the inside and the outside is becoming more congruent with each day.
Looking back, my transition happened when it was supposed to have happened and not a day too late.
I finally like myself, at last, I like myself.
Wing Walker
