Hi guy's and girls.
This last couple of weeks I have been struggling a lot with dysphoria. But I realized also I grew impatient in transitioning. I just want to get everything over and done with as soon as possible. I want to finish the operation because I can't stand the male genitals. I want my voice to be perfect and in it all I forgot that getting this far took time and hard work. I guess a timeline for transitioning is not set in stone. But I guess it would take about 3 years to finish transition in my case and I am only a little bit than a year full time now.
I am still fighting with home affairs to sort out my ID I contacted a lawyer to help me with this. As the people working at home affairs is pretty useless and spiteful. Numerous people have problems with them. To get married I have to have my id sorted with a new ID number. It is a long journey to get to the point where I feel my transition is done and complete, I just got a bit impatient getting there.