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Started by Anne Blake, August 27, 2017, 12:03:17 PM

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Jessica Lynne

Jeesh, Laurie........how on gods green earth do you stay so trim?
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steph2.0

Quote from: Anne Blake on September 26, 2017, 12:00:34 PM
Thanks for the warning Kendra but just a little too late.

Ha. Watch out for that Kendra lady, she's sneaky. You can regard my post as preemptive, attempting to use up all the puns before she gets to them. Did you see the reference to drowning? Uh-huh. That was one of the few I didn't use.

And don't get her started on haiku or limericks. Yikes!

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Stephanie, many women at the three month mark of hrt go strongly emotional, with your tendency to dive into the puns, you may want to check your hrt recipe with your doctor.

If this is bad, I don't wanna feel good. Actually, I've always had this bizarre tendency. It's something I hope I don't lose through the transition. And Miss Kendra seems to trigger it in me.

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Though it does feel like family around here, please keep it coming.

Be careful what you wish for, though there's no avoiding it anyway with this crowd, so you might as well enjoy the ride.

Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Anne Blake

Thank you for the warnings Stephanie but that feeling of family is one of the strongest take aways that I have received from Susan's, something that I treasure......golly, now you have made me emotional and a bit teary eyed.

This morning I had my final visit with Dr. Ley before heading home. Tomorrow morning we head off to Santa Fe and then back home on Saturday, eighteen days after leaving home (it sure seems longer, perhaps a lifetime ago) Yesterday was the two week mark since surgery so I thought that I would give a mid-course summary of where I am in this phase of the "Amazing Journey".

-   Two weeks ago I had a partial vaginoplasty performed by Dr. Ley of Dr. Meltzer's office. My partner and I chose partial for simplicity, lower risk, lower maintenance, age and low expectations of use of a full vaginal canal.
-   At this point I have to tell you that I absolutely love not dilating. There may come a point where I regret this choice but for now, that point is not even on the horizon.
-   I have been very pleased with Dr. Meltzer and Dr. Ley's organization and the choice of Dr. Ley as my surgeon. I have been pleased in every way and can think of no dissatisfied instances, two thumbs up for her services!
-   My healing to date, while glacially slow has been without complication. Yes, I am sore and wish that I was whole and fit but I have never had good patience for required healing time. I am constantly being told, "you just had major surgery, slow down and let time do its job" but I don't listen well.
-   At some point in the past month or two I foolishly thought that I could get through this experience on my own. I now know that it would have been foolish for me to try it (absolutely no disrespect for those that have done this solo, actually total respect for their determination and strength). I want to thank my partner for putting up with all my crying. I also want to include a huge thank you for Dena for stepping in and helping us so much when we needed it. Thank you Dena!
-   I fully believe that the two months of fitness training at the gym with a trainer was significantly beneficial in the ease of my recovery. If you can work this in, I highly recommend it.
-   There have been postings on this site that query, "When is transition complete?". While I am still early in my recovery phase of GCS, I in no way sense a completeness, a definite milestone but not completion of becoming me. My next step is documentation changes but the biggest part of all of this for me is to figure out and integrate into what being "me" is all about and I hope to spend the next twenty or thirty years figuring that part out.

I plan to continue posting about my recovery and stepping back into whatever "Normal" life is like. I also realize that my journey of pursuing partial GCS at nearly 70 years of age is not the common path (if there ever was such a thing) that most women on this site take. Please feel free to ask any questions that may arise, either through this thread or via pm's.

Many thanks and hugs to my sisters and brothers here at Susan's,
Tia Anne
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Jessica Lynne

Those stix and your profession of your age make my brain do cartwheels trying to reconcile what you say  :-\ :P
Congrats on another milestone in your journey, Anne. Good luck on your spiritual path to continuity and bliss....or is that bliss and continuity ;)
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Laurie

Hi Tia,

  I is so good to hear all about your surgery and enjoying the parts of recovery you have shared with us. One of these days I'll have to bring you that frozen baggy of poblano sauce I've put away for you and send you off to thaw it and enjoy it while I get "The rest of the story" from Deb. I'm sure there are aspects you two have chosen not to share publicly here. Or at the very least I'm sure it would be interesting to hear it from Deb's point of view.

Enjoy the shopping in Santa Fe and take it easy on the road trip home.

Hugs for both of you,
  Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Rachel

I am happy you feel well and are going home. Happy travels.
HRT  5-28-2013
FT   11-13-2015
FFS   9-16-2016 -Spiegel
GCS 11-15-2016 - McGinn
Hair Grafts 3-20-2017 - Cooley
Voice therapy start 3-2017 - Reene Blaker
Labiaplasty 5-15-2017 - McGinn
BA 7-12-2017 - McGinn
Hair grafts 9-25-2017 Dr.Cooley
Sataloff Cricothyroid subluxation and trachea shave12-11-2017
Dr. McGinn labiaplasty, hood repair, scar removal, graph repair and bottom of  vagina finished. urethra repositioned. 4-4-2018
Dr. Sataloff Glottoplasty 5-14-2018
Dr. McGinn vaginal in office procedure 10-22-2018
Dr. McGinn vaginal revision 2 4-3-2019 Bottom of vagina closed off, fat injected into the labia and urethra repositioned.
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Anne Blake

Ok, something else to report. I was spending some time around the pool on our last day in Arizona, my partner was resting in our room when I noticed two or three men staring and checking me out. It didn't appear that they had read me and what bothered me most was being ogled by guys who didn't read me, kind of made me feel a bit dirty. I don't have any idea of what I would have done if any of them had approached me. Great, I am transitioning but I am not ready to take some of the down sides that the cis women have always had to live with! My partner just says it comes with the territory.
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Laurie

Quote from: Anne Blake on September 27, 2017, 08:09:49 PM
Ok, something else to report. I was spending some time around the pool on our last day in Arizona, my partner was resting in our room when I noticed two or three men staring and checking me out. It didn't appear that they had read me and what bothered me most was being ogled by guys who didn't read me, kind of made me feel a bit dirty. I don't have any idea of what I would have done if any of them had approached me. Great, I am transitioning but I am not ready to take some of the down sides that the cis women have always had to live with! My partner just says it comes with the territory.

  Hi Tia,

    I'm sure you with learn to handle it. You may even get to where you'll take is as a compliment.
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Anne Blake

Greetings All,

It had been fun showing pictures laying around the pool and feeling a bit better each day. I had been feeling good enough to head back home a week earlier than originally planned. Well many good plans work out but not all. Most of the return trip home has had me in the primary care giver and principle driver position and I have not been up for it. Going from pool side weather to Colorado temperatures and seriously  over extended physically is taking a toll. Today appears to be all about getting some laundry done and hiding curled up under my blankets feeling sorry for my self, this kind of sucks. The guy that we killed off would have just toughed it out and walked out of this the hero, this broken girl hasn't figured out how to get rid of the guilty feeling of breaking and needing help and how to let go of feeling sorry for myself; not even up for any retail therapy. Any suggestions?

Tia Anne
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LizK

Quote from: Anne Blake on October 01, 2017, 01:14:28 PM
Greetings All,

It had been fun showing pictures laying around the pool and feeling a bit better each day. I had been feeling good enough to head back home a week earlier than originally planned. Well many good plans work out but not all. Most of the return trip home has had me in the primary care giver and principle driver position and I have not been up for it. Going from pool side weather to Colorado temperatures and seriously  over extended physically is taking a toll. Today appears to be all about getting some laundry done and hiding curled up under my blankets feeling sorry for my self, this kind of sucks. The guy that we killed off would have just toughed it out and walked out of this the hero, this broken girl hasn't figured out how to get rid of the guilty feeling of breaking and needing help and how to let go of feeling sorry for myself; not even up for any retail therapy. Any suggestions?

Tia Anne

Hi Tia

Not any real expert on that stuff sorry, but how about a hug? Consider yourself hugged!! ;D The guy you killed off would not have made it through what you have been through. I have heard of girls feeling down when they get home after GCS and I am sure those that have had experience with this will be able to help more than I can. Take good care of yourself

Hugs

Liz
Transition Begun 25 September 2015
HRT since 17 May 2016,
Fulltime from 8 March 2017,
GCS 4 December 2018
Voice Surgery 01 February 2019
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Anne Blake

Thanks Liz, you have been there for me throughout this journey and it had been appreciated.

Tia Anne
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Laurie



  I'm glad you and Debi made it home. The only thing I might suggest is that you have one wonderful partner there by your side. Listen to her and let her help you. I know for a fact she has far more experience at coping with  emotional difficulties than you have. It's time to let her lead for at least awhile.
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Maybebaby56

Quote from: Anne Blake on September 27, 2017, 08:09:49 PM
Ok, something else to report. I was spending some time around the pool on our last day in Arizona, my partner was resting in our room when I noticed two or three men staring and checking me out. It didn't appear that they had read me and what bothered me most was being ogled by guys who didn't read me, kind of made me feel a bit dirty. I don't have any idea of what I would have done if any of them had approached me. Great, I am transitioning but I am not ready to take some of the down sides that the cis women have always had to live with! My partner just says it comes with the territory.

Lol, just feel flattered.  I have never been ogled, checked out, asked out, approached, complimented, flirted with, or bought a drink. I did have a door held open for me once.  That's about it, and I have been full-time for a year. Whatever you're doing, it's working!

~Terri
"How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives" - Annie Dillard
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HappyMoni

Quote from: Maybebaby56 on October 02, 2017, 03:26:29 PM
Lol, just feel flattered.  I have never been ogled, checked out, asked out, approached, complimented, flirted with, or bought a drink. I did have a door held open for me once.  That's about it, and I have been full-time for a year. Whatever you're doing, it's working!

~Terri
Oh come on, I got some of these covered. I ogled you, checked you out, approached, and complimented you. Next  time I see you I'll buy you a drink. Holding the door open is for the boys, I draw the line there. (Hey Anne, what does ogle mean?) Well don't feel alone, I got a hand kiss from a gay guy, the extent of my sex appeal.
Moni
If I ever offend you, let me know. It's not what I am about.
"Never let the dark kill your light!"  (SailorMars)

HRT June 11, 2015. (new birthday) - FFS in late June 2016. (Dr. _____=Ugh!) - Full time June 18, 2016 (Yeah! finally) - GCS June 27, 2017. (McGinn=Yeah!) - Under Eye repair from FFS 8/17/17 - Nose surgery-November 20, 2017 (Dr. Papel=Yeah) - Hair Transplant on June 21, 2018 (Dr. Cooley-yeah) - Breast Augmentation on July 10, 2018 (Dr. Basner in Baltimore) - Removed bad scarring from FFS surgery near ears and hairline in August, 2018 (Dr. Papel) -Sept. 2018, starting a skin regiment on face with Retin A  April 2019 -repairing neck scar from FFS

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Anne Blake

Today is the three week post op mark, time for an update. I walked downtown for breakfast this morning, a mile walk. It totally drained me. The drive home last weekend way overextended my physical capacity and left me curled up in a ball crying in pain....yes, really stupid but I had gotten myself into a position and needed to ride it out. After two days in bed I was able to walk a mile and while exhausted felt great. But the really neat part came in two separate steps. First, lookin in the mirror, while the lower parts still look ghastly and swollen they are mine and do not include dangly parts, hooray! The next and better part is that walking down town, sitting in my favorite restaurant, shopping this afternoon, going out to dinner, all of it, there was not a single hint or question of being out of place or being read or anything other than being totally and completely me and I have never felt better. I know that gcs is sort of a graduation step but the feelings that I have about who I am are more than I could ever have expected, way more than a ceremonial milestone.

FYI, I made an appointment with my therapist for next week to begin the next step of figuring out what I want to be/do when I grow up.

Tia Anne
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SarahFehrman

Quote from: Anne Blake on October 03, 2017, 10:18:10 PM
Today is the three week post op mark, time for an update. I walked downtown for breakfast this morning, a mile walk. It totally drained me. The drive home last weekend way overextended my physical capacity and left me curled up in a ball crying in pain....yes, really stupid but I had gotten myself into a position and needed to ride it out. After two days in bed I was able to walk a mile and while exhausted felt great. But the really neat part came in two separate steps. First, lookin in the mirror, while the lower parts still look ghastly and swollen they are mine and do not include dangly parts, hooray! The next and better part is that walking down town, sitting in my favorite restaurant, shopping this afternoon, going out to dinner, all of it, there was not a single hint or question of being out of place or being read or anything other than being totally and completely me and I have never felt better. I know that gcs is sort of a graduation step but the feelings that I have about who I am are more than I could ever have expected, way more than a ceremonial milestone.

FYI, I made an appointment with my therapist for next week to begin the next step of figuring out what I want to be/do when I grow up.

Tia Anne
Hi Anne - I've been away from here for awhile and am trying to catch up. I have started reading this blog and I'm so happy for you! You are where I hope to be one day and it's such an enlightening inspiration to read what you're posting. Thank you for sharing! I've already told you in the past how beautiful you look. One would not have known that you weren't already post-op! Please take care to get yourself healthy and pain free as quickly as you can.

I can't tell you how thankful I am to be able to have you, Alaskan Danielle, Laurie and so many other precious ladies to relate to and communicate with. Much, much love to you all - you make a girl feel so good!

Hugs,
Sarah From Chitown
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LizK

Quote from: Anne Blake on October 03, 2017, 10:18:10 PM
Today is the three week post op mark, time for an update. I walked downtown for breakfast this morning, a mile walk. It totally drained me. The drive home last weekend way overextended my physical capacity and left me curled up in a ball crying in pain....yes, really stupid but I had gotten myself into a position and needed to ride it out. After two days in bed I was able to walk a mile and while exhausted felt great. But the really neat part came in two separate steps. First, lookin in the mirror, while the lower parts still look ghastly and swollen they are mine and do not include dangly parts, hooray! The next and better part is that walking down town, sitting in my favorite restaurant, shopping this afternoon, going out to dinner, all of it, there was not a single hint or question of being out of place or being read or anything other than being totally and completely me and I have never felt better. I know that gcs is sort of a graduation step but the feelings that I have about who I am are more than I could ever have expected, way more than a ceremonial milestone.

FYI, I made an appointment with my therapist for next week to begin the next step of figuring out what I want to be/do when I grow up.

Tia Anne


Hi Tia Anne

As I approach my own "time of tribulation" it was great to see your update. I didn't realise how short of time it has been since your op. I am sorry to hear of the result of the car ride but will gladly store that under "Things not to do just after GCS" but I guess you probably didn't have much choice.

I was smiling from ear to ear reading you describing your feelings about yourself, I went back and re-read some of our earlier emails and in one you talk about dysphoria in your life...this last post of yours in comparison to the one of the ones when life was tougher for us both.....to me it is so heart warming to hear you write as you do now.

You are so right my friend you have also been with me from the beginning and have been part of my journey.

Take care

Liz
Transition Begun 25 September 2015
HRT since 17 May 2016,
Fulltime from 8 March 2017,
GCS 4 December 2018
Voice Surgery 01 February 2019
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Anne Blake

Hi Sarah & Liz,

It has been a while since I looked at this thread and thought of all the emotions, trepidations and fears leading up to that day a little over a year ago. So much has happened since then that just a year ago is a distant memory and it feels like the body that I have now is the one that I have always had.....but don't for one moment think that I take it for granted! I love every change that has allowed me to become me.

Not everything with the gcs is perfect yet. There are still areas of numbness (hopefully continuing to improve) and I am considering getting the second stage of the surgery completed. Perhaps tmi but my clit is quite large and sensitive and a hood for protection may be a good solution. This is something that I intend to discuss with Dr Ley  in the future. And while we always second guess our choices and I occasionally feel a desire to have a full depth vaginal channel, I treasure and constantly celebrate never having to dialate!

The truth of it all is that I am extremely happy with the choices that were made, the skilled work Dr Ley provided and my comfort with myself and life in general.

Liz, I fully believe that you will be saying the same thing at a year post op. You and I need to get together at that time to celebrate these amazing journeys!

Tia Anne
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KathyLauren

OMG, Tia Anne, how is it that I totally missed this thread at the time?  Congratulations on being a year post-op!

I have just caught up on your thread.  Thank you for posting about your surgery and recovery.  Your experiences will be valuable for me, since I am planning to have the same surgery with Dr. Brassard as soon as it can be scheduled (likely several months away yet).
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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Anne Blake

Kathy,

Thank you for your kind words. I have been following your thread and seen your progress in collecting letters. Getting your second letter must be so exciting! When mine was ready, Laurie had just arrived on her first visit, she all but came in the door when I left her with Debi as I headed off on a three hour round trip to get that cherished letter in my hands....not much of a hostess for a new visitor.

I am sure that you will do well with the surgery and we will be here to encourage you through your recovery.

Farewell sister friend,
Tia Anne
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