My boyfriend is going to the endocrinologist in two days to finally get his first shot of testosterone, but for me, I still have a few months before I can start. I've tried to get him to wait until we both could go on it at the same day, but he wasn't willing to. I don't know how to cope with this - In my eyes, I'll always be inferior. He'll drastically look male before I even do, and I feel really alienated. I know that he'll always be transitioning faster than I am and pass better. He'll get called all of the proper pronouns and have all of the approval of being a man, and I'll be stuck in his shadow. Until the day that we die, he'll always be more of a "man" than me.
Not to mention, because I'm pre-T, whenever we are togeather, we will be seen as a straight couple, and I'll be misgendered even worse.
