I am so different now.. completely different

[Itsdone]

So,
Anyone else change completely with transition.  I feel like I am a completely different person. I went from a guy who was very bad to the bone on the exterior to a blonde babe. 
I did not have to learn to be a girl I just became one. Its weird. Sometimes I don't think I am that much different and I don't think we understand how much we changed in others eyes.

I am told that I am not even the same person.. that I just have some of my old memories.

Sometimes I look at this as a rebirth.. a new life.. almost really as if you were just born and arrived on earth.

Its hard to explain to others sometimes.  So I am trying to make sense.  Not everyone feels like I do about the changes.

It sure can be a wtf moment at times.   People that new me before said my old self died and we should have had a funeral.. Especially family because they grieve over the loss.. as if I am dead and its so weird.

I feel like I am witnessing my own death aftermath in so many ways.. My family loves me but it was hard for them... hell I even miss my old self... he was a cool guy ...

But I was not me.. I don't think we realize how hard it is to be fake until we are real.. Being real is so cool because we don't think about gender anymore..

We do have that different set of issues like any woman.. It actually kind of sucks to be a girl... but I am one.

I am sorry for the ramble.. just trying to share my perspective on who I have become..  I kind of wish everyone could read my transition posts from the beginning but I am stealth now.. ugh.

Love ya

Me

[Charlie Nicki]

You are happier now right? That's the most important thing. Congrats.


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[Janes Groove]

After I came out, and I started living full time and began HRT it was kind of like being shipwrecked and sea-tossed.
Then awakening on some distant and unknown shore.

Perfumed with jasmine, lush and deep green with foliage, warm wind on my skin, exotic, awakening reborn in a new world with the taste of oranges in my mouth.

[Dani2118]

I've only been in transition for a couple of months and I've already seen changes. I'm one of us old-timers [57] so I never expect to go stealth, I'll bet it's nice! I was a momma's boy, where she went I went. I didn't realize then what I was doing, I was learning to a woman. When my "man shell' cracked open my 'girl' was ready to come out! For me I'm free! For family and friends it's been a shock to say the least. I'm curious to see how much I will change. The old me was alright, but not really me. The real me is still coming out of me and I don't know who she'll be when she's finished. It's not been long but the old me is gone. I got man-handled today and old me came back for a few minutes to tell him off! Then 'poof' old me was gone again. That showed me how much change has happened in just a couple of months!

[Itsdone]

You are happier now right? That's the most important thing. Congrats.


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Well, I am happy but more emotional and I do cry and get down more.  But its all about being alone. I was married 32 years and its hard to give all that up.  At first you don't even care. You are so driven to be who you are and have already been death was the only other option.

Then, you make it and you no longer have that gender issue.. but trade offs are there.
I fill my time with new things like acting and singing and guitar.. LOL.. A lot of time.. its my life now and that is how I cope with being alone.  And that is why people see me so different.
One day I looked like a body guard and the next I am a blonde chick with curves singing and playing guitar and before I would not even do anything public.. LOL
I am cured and happy but no one is going to be perfectly happy in life.. or we would just sit on our butts and chill..right

[Maddie86]

I do not miss my old self at all!! I only started HRT back in mid july, and so far my mental state hasn't been changed too much from the hormones, but it has a little and I like where it's going! I feel like the bigger changes came back in February after I started coming out to some close friends. There was this huge weight lifted from my shoulders and now I was finally free to be myself around a select few people that I love! I'm not fully out yet, but people have been noticing my changes, and fortunately as of now I can pass them off as being related to my weight loss and sobriety (been sober since January).

I really wasn't much of a man, I couldn't dress myself well as a man for special occasions, it would be way easier for me to pick out a dress than a suit! and I was never able to do well in the love department either. I'd hang out with my guy friends but something just didn't click and it was pretty obvious that I was different from them. So far no one's been surprised when I told them I'm going to transition, but I've been pretty careful about who I chose to tell so far. I know it's going to get harder but I'm looking forward to my future self!

[JoanneB]

Since I am the worlds worst judge of Who & What I am, I'll follow my wife's lead

Yes, I am Different. Not as much physically, the aspects she is not too thrilled about. But rather emotionally, as a person, as in Actually Being a For Real Person.... I plead guilty.