I feel so much better....

[mako9802]

Hello all. I just wanted to post this and state since coming out to my sister a couple of weeks ago.  I have felt  so much better and so much more clear in my own mind.  I had this paralyzing fear of being not accepted or ostracised from my family and although I have not told my mother and father yet at least I will  have her no matter what.   With the holidays coming up it is going to be interesting although I  still present as male  for the  time  being  it is becoming  more obvious that "something is going on" I have been on HRT since September of last year.  I am kinda in the androgynous state where I can  still go either way.  I just wanted to say what finally bought me the courage to tell  what was  going on is  the realization that I was 35 years old and not going to be around forever and not being happy with the direction of my life and thinking "why in the hell are you worrying what random people who don't even know me think.  Onward I go....slow and steady steps...

[antia212]

I'm going through a very similar feeling at this point of my life. While I had "doubts" throughout my twenties, turning 30 last year and seeing my body slowly age in masculine ways has created a sense of urgency to prioritize my happiness over my perception of the feelings my loved ones have with regard to my identity.


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[KathyLauren]

Congratulations on coming out!  Even coming out to one person is such a relief, isn't it?  You no longer have to hold it all in by yourself.

[Kendra]

You jumped in and the water is quite nice, isn't it?  I had massive fear when I stood on that diving board earlier this year... and then I couldn't do it, climbed back down the ladder a few times, lost too much sleep, climbed back up and went for it.  So glad I did now. 

Welcome to your future - it's good. 

[Artesia]

I was in that place earlier this year.  It feels further away than that now.  It's a wonderful feeling, isn't it? 

[Colleen_definitely]

Good job, and believe me it gets a lot easier as you go. 

Of course hearing that from everyone else here didn't make it any less terrifying for me at first, but I'll keep the tradition alive.