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First bad day in a long time

Started by Megan., October 03, 2017, 12:47:11 PM

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Megan.

It's my first down day in 5 months,  I had to have one eventually!
A heady mix of some GD,  unhappiness with my weight/shape in the mirror this morning and an extra dose of useless medical care courtesy of the NHS.
These conspired to make me retrench from a great opportunity at work,  and I've just turned down a nice evening out with friends so I can hide away at home on my own [emoji853].
I'm going for a long swim in a bit to generate some endorphins that might pick me up a bit.

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Charlotte F

I'm sorry to hear that Megan

I hope you enjoy your swim.  You can't beat a bit of exercise to help get your head back in to a good place

Charlotte x
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Megan.

Tnx hun,  rough with the smooth,  that's life I guess.

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Laurie

I am sure you'll get it worked out Megan. Hang in there, Megan, talk to someone and get it out to look at so you can tackle it. I wish I could be more encouraging for you.
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Bari Jo

I'm sorry to hear that Megan.  I hope that exercise makes everything more palatable.  If it helps, I love reading your updates.  I know GD is a killer, and rears its head at very inopportune times.  The thing that is getting me through surprise GD attacks is that I am doing something to change myself to get to where my GD won't be there, or at least not as monstrous.  I see you doing that with the exercise, that's great.  I do the same with an elliptical and hula hoop.
you know how far the universe extends outward? i think i go inside just as deep.

10/11/18 - out to the whole world.  100% friends and family support.
11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
Age 8 - knew I was different
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Megan.

Tnx all, it's comforting knowing the Susan's gang is here [emoji5].
The GD thing is silly,  I've gone several months with almost none,  I log onto the intranet at work today and there's a great picture of our new female CEO looking fab,  and WHAM,  why that,  why today?? Sux
Hula hoop sounds fun,  bet that's good for the obliques?

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Bari Jo

Quote from: meganjames2 on October 03, 2017, 01:41:52 PM
Tnx all, it's comforting knowing the Susan's gang is here [emoji5].
The GD thing is silly,  I've gone several months with almost none,  I log onto the intranet at work today and there's a great picture of our new female CEO looking fab,  and WHAM,  why that,  why today?? Sux
Hula hoop sounds fun,  bet that's good for the obliques?

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Hah, I get GD from coworkers too.  There's three itty bitty girls that work here that I love to be around, but I'm always comparing myself to them.  I could never, never diet enough to be that small, plus they are young, hot, Eef, trifecta.

Hula is fun.  Im not sure what area it targets, just that it makes me tired and it gives me a silly feeling.  I love those feelings.
you know how far the universe extends outward? i think i go inside just as deep.

10/11/18 - out to the whole world.  100% friends and family support.
11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
Age 8 - knew I was different
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Julia1996

Quote from: Bari Jo on October 03, 2017, 01:33:29 PM
I'm sorry to hear that Megan.  I hope that exercise makes everything more palatable.  If it helps, I love reading your updates.  I know GD is a killer, and rears its head at very inopportune times.  The thing that is getting me through surprise GD attacks is that I am doing something to change myself to get to where my GD won't be there, or at least not as monstrous.  I see you doing that with the exercise, that's great.  I do the same with an elliptical and hula hoop.

What's hula hoop?
Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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Bari Jo

Quote from: Julia1996 on October 03, 2017, 03:21:55 PM
What's hula hoop?

It's a big ring you get to swing around your waist by shaking your booty.  Do a search on you tube:)
you know how far the universe extends outward? i think i go inside just as deep.

10/11/18 - out to the whole world.  100% friends and family support.
11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
Age 8 - knew I was different
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Laurie

Quote from: Julia1996 on October 03, 2017, 03:21:55 PM
What's hula hoop?

Julia, Julia, Julia.  You're so young and so fresh, it's invigorating to behold. Love ya young lady.
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Megan.

Quote from: Julia1996 on October 03, 2017, 03:21:55 PM
What's hula hoop?
Gosh, you kids! Hehe

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Julia1996

Quote from: Bari Jo on October 03, 2017, 03:48:39 PM
It's a big ring you get to swing around your waist by shaking your booty.  Do a search on you tube:)
Oh ok. That's.....interesting.
Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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Julia1996

But there are other kinds of workouts you can do that don't make you look like....well, a spaz.
Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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Megan.

Thank you Julia for cheering me up and making me laugh. Spaz or not,  if it tightens my waist,  I'll do it!
2km in the pool done, endorphins pumping,  feeling better. [emoji16]

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Laurie

Quote from: Julia1996 on October 03, 2017, 03:54:53 PM
But there are other kinds of workouts you can do that don't make you look like....well, a spaz.

Julia the Hula Hoop was introduced as a toy way back when. It just happened to also be good exercize. Kids would get together and see how many they could get going at once and did the hooping on different parts of the body too. Like the neck, arms, legs as well as the normal place at the waist. They even held competitions with them.
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Laurie

Quote from: meganjames2 on October 03, 2017, 03:57:13 PM
Thank you Julia for cheering me up and making me laugh. Spaz or not,  if it tightens my waist,  I'll do it!
2km in the pool done, endorphins pumping,  feeling better. [emoji16]

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Glad you are feeling better Megan
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Megan.

Quote from: Laurie on October 03, 2017, 04:00:48 PM
Glad you are feeling better Megan
Tnx Laurie,  there are times the only thing keeping me sane is a good workout.

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Julia1996

Quote from: meganjames2 on October 03, 2017, 03:57:13 PM
Thank you Julia for cheering me up and making me laugh. Spaz or not,  if it tightens my waist,  I'll do it!
2km in the pool done, endorphins pumping,  feeling better. [emoji16]

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I'm glad you're feeling better Megan. ☺

Ok! I've been wrecking my brain trying to remember where I had heard the world hula hoop. Now I remember! It was from one of my grandmas god awful Christmas records! It was from the chipmunks Christmas album. Yeah, I said chipmunks Christmas album. :icon_yikes:  I was at her house last year helping her with her tree and she was playing her Christmas records. Actual records that are made out of plastic!  When that awful chipmunk song played for the third time I asked if she had an ice pick because sticking it in my ears would hurt less than that horrible song. But that's where I heard "hula hoop".

Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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Dena

Quote from: Julia1996 on October 03, 2017, 04:06:44 PM
I'm glad you're feeling better Megan. ☺

Ok! I've been wrecking my brain trying to remember where I had heard the world hula hoop. Now I remember! It was from one of my grandmas god awful Christmas records! It was from the chipmunks Christmas album. Yeah, I said chipmunks Christmas album. :icon_yikes:  I was at her house last year helping her with her tree and she was playing her Christmas records. Actual records that are made out of plastic!  When that awful chipmunk song played for the third time I asked if she had an ice pick because sticking it in my ears would hurt less than that horrible song. But that's where I heard "hula hoop".
Sorry you didn't like the song but it was pretty common for a long time. The records where recorded at half speed with a male singing all 3 parts and then replayed at normal speed giving it that different sound.
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Cindy

Can we be a bit more feeling with language please.

Spaz - From spastic, the disability.
Means a person that acts insane or mentally retarded

I don't think that in this day and age that the use of such a phrase is warranted.

Cindy
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