I was there in Bangkok for surgery for the July. And the change what happened inside my head, was not about the surgery, but from experiencing a country, culture and people, who actually did not accept me, it is totally wrong in my opinion to say, that they would have accepted me as a ts.
They thought me as a normal part of life, just like millions of other people in the city, just a person doing their own business. There is a huge difference with that to being accepted, which we are requesting in west. Being part of normal ordinary everyday life in west, I think is still hundreds of years ahead. Something that I will never see.
The change inside me was just huge from experiencing the country and people. I feel free finally. I am ts and somehow it has disappeared from me, the need to try to squeeze myself into a cis norm. I am what I am, and that is all that matters.
Had to travel far, pay a lot of money, do things that I would never have thought that I would do...to finally come to peace with myself and be happy.
