rough therapy session. Truth hurts. My wife opened up on her conflicts and issues. Nothing leaning towards separation or anything, just stuff she's struggling with. For myself, the guilt for what I am putting her through taints what would be a very happy and exciting journey for me/us. I do not fault or blame her, I knew when I told her that she'd have trouble with it.
Past/present/future concerns all blur together to cause stress and unhappiness. You can say one-day-at-a-time all that you want, the reality is, it's difficult if not impossible to achieve.
For myself, I do not have any conflicts within myself. I know who I am, I know what I feel, it's the affect that it's having outside of myself that I am striving to deal with.
We ended the evening all settled and comfortable and pleasant togetherness. Getting it out really helps, dealing with it as it comes out is hard.
I have to eat a little crow (is that still a phrase used?), it turns out the the 'friends' were not trying to push us away or outright say it's all wrong. Yes, their beliefs say it's wrong. I say their interpretation of it is wrong. They want to keep our friendship and are struggling to understand. Well, join the club. No one can truly understand unless they are the ones going through it. Even at that, I have trouble understanding myself, I just know what's right.
I plan on reaching out see about meeting for an afternoon or evening where I can try to help them come to terms. I don't want to have to sell myself and I'm not going to but I will try to help them understand as best they can and strive for acceptance. Acceptance I can handle, 'tolerate'? ... nope.