hi Y'all (well, the one or two that bother to look in here). Popping in for a few. Things have been rather uneventful on the whole. Ups and downs, but who doesn't? A couple severe downs .. mainly the body dysphoria. I guess life wants to knock you down if things are moving too smoothly.
I've caught up a bit on the forum, skimming mostly. I can read bits and pieces but my brain gives out if there is too much detail. It may be related to my IBS/Gluten problem. One of the symptoms is 'brain-fog'. I'm definitely foggy. we won't discuss the other symptoms ... TMI
I'm still fighting with PP to get a copy of my lab work. How hard is it? Aren't they mine in the first place? Next step is to drive there in person and not leave without them. They use quest and I have a Quest portal. I contacted Quest and they can't find any record of the lab work. grrr. I know they link to Quest because my very first lab results are on there. I seriously wonder if they botched the blood draw again and prescribed my current doses without them rather than admit that they screwed up.
Lori mentioned a couple things that made me feel good, lets start with the bad.
1- A/C compressor unit is falling through it's stand. The stand is made of wood and we've had lots of rain. The unit ended up leaning back towards the house causing the old siding to rot out and fall. No one makes the siding any more. I had to patch in a different style. It doesn't look horrible but I still have to straighten out the stand so that the compressor is straight. With my current luck, I'll probably break the copper freon lines.
2- Lori had problem with the rider, poor thing is old, burnt rubber and smoke from the blade belt. I figured it wore out, rolled off, and got caught. Well that much was true. I ordered new belts w/o checking. Well, the blade belt rolled off because the mounting bracket on the deck broke off. The deck is severely rusted, repair option is low. It's too old to buy a new deck. That puts us at buying a new rider ... have I mentioned having no money at any point? We took the deck to her brother's. He'll try to band-aid it if possible, if we can't get a new rider.
3- Hot, sweaty, tired. Call it a day, it looked to be ready to rain in any case. Deciding what to watch on TV as I relax, talking to Lori and ... CRASH BANG ... lightning and no more TV. It's dead. I took it apart jic but nothing obvious. That means gamble a parts swap that may not work or buy a new TV. Have I mentioned having no money?
4- We went grocery shopping to get out of the house and picked up a few items on our list. After getting back we decide to break in her new chainsaw. We'd picked an electric up recently for brush trimming (crappy pepper trees!! Overgrown weeds is what they are!). Anyway, that went OK but man I was pooped. I give in and go take a shower.
5- after the shower I hear water dripping ... hmm, .. track it down. 3 inches of water inside the A/C return duct and out into the closet area ... ARRGGGHHH ... drain was backing up. Vacuum and mop and clean change the filter (which was the wrong size, had to make it fit). Got it all back together. It's seems to be OK for now.
Saturday is done. pheww ..
Sunday morning walk, chatting with Lori, the local bike troupe starts riding by. "hello ladies", "good morning ladies" .. that's a good start to the day. Lori looked at me and said, "See, I told you".
Then she mentioned from a while back that one of our mutual ¿friends? had seen me sitting at a table by myself and had thought to herself, "Poor woman sitting there alone." and came to sit near me, for company I guess. She didn't realize it was me until I looked up straight at her.
At her brother's house last night, his wife asked Lori who she had with me, thinking another girl and didn't know who it was. Lori was like, umm .. and told her it was me. She didn't recognize me. It's been maybe 6 months?, I think, since they'd seen me.
Confirmation of change comes at odd times and in odd ways while I still see
him in the mirror.
I don't know why I still end up posting but there you have it .. whomever ends up reading it, if any one.
