I woke up this morning got ready for work. I managed a bit of mascara before I stopped. I put on my comfy skirt and top .. it would have been jeans and shirt except, for some reason, I don't have any jeans. The drive to work was long and dark, figuratively. I made it to work early, no make-up is a time saver. With nothing to do all I had was to sit there and dwell on my own thoughts. I didn't have any specific ones, my mind drifted .. down .. down .. I kept fighting back tears. Wander around, think dark thoughts, try not to break down.
Around 8:30a Sarah1972 (sorry, mentions don't work) sent me an email checking on me, expressing worry. I almost replied fine, then I didn't and replied with the truth. '
SHE' was missing, '
HE' wasn't in there either. I was drifting in nothing in darkness. '
HE' is there in the mirror, '
SHE' is nowhere to be found.
I managed 5 hours before texting my wife asking if I could come home.
Asking, like I needed permission. I just couldn't take it any more. Of course she said yes. She was at the car shop. I met her there to go to lunch. We talked a bit over lunch, mostly how I felt. No details (public place). It still helped. I communicated with Sarah a bit at the same time.
Lunch was over, go to the register to pay for it .. I get ma'am'd
Caught a waiter looking at me .. I'd really like to know what people are thinking sometimes. Well, maybe not.
We wandered some shops after lunch. No purchasing just time spent with my lady. I even managed an accidental dial to Sarah. I got to her hear voice for a few seconds before the signal cut out.
I'm feeling better thanks to Sarah and Lori. I don't know how long it will last. I'm pretty sure this time of the month has compounded an already unstable mood.
TGIF