A totally awesome day

[Donna]

Plateaus and bump are going to happen. As long as your average is heading in the right direction then all will balance out for the best. Keep on being as positive as you can, you have a lot happening right now

[xAmyX]

Ah, life is amazing. Each and every day gets brighter and brighter, and everything turns to gold.

[krobinson103]

Today I went to my Great Aunt's Funeral and to fit it for the first time in months I wore feminine but mostly gender neutral clothes. Half my relatives didn't recognise me for a while which was interesting but they eventually did. More imporantly though, I felt NO dysphoria doing it. I think I may have this dysphoria thing beaten.

[KathyLauren]

More imporantly though, I felt NO dysphoria doing it. I think I may have this dysphoria thing beaten.

Glad to hear that you have the dysphoria under control.  Don't get cocky, though, it can resurface in strange places.  But knowing that you are going to be okay is a good place to be.

[krobinson103]

Had my counseling appointment yesterday. It was pretty good and the counselor agreed that surgery is the next logical step. Suggested that I drive myself too hard and should look after myself a little better by allowing for more down time to process. I tend to agree. So, in a month when I see the doctor next there will be one more brief appointment for data gathering purposes, and to ensure that the process has been completed appropriately to pave the way for surgery.

On the home front it blows hot and cold. My wife is accepting one day and aggressive the next. Kids are good. At work I need to pull out of this inward looking thing and focus on meeting some professional standards - a challenge in some ways but one I can meet within the 6 months I have to do so.

I've come to realize that while the physical changes came quickly my mind needs time to catch up and really process the implications of transition to my self image and how it affects how I fit into society.

One foot in front of the other and more waiting...

[krobinson103]

Seems there aren't many firsts to talk about these days. But, today there is. I wore a fitted skirt to work for the first time. Wraps I've worn but  they are still quite concealing. This skirt while long leaves nothing to the imagination. I have no issues with it, no else seems to either, other than its a bit constricting.

[krobinson103]

Today I met two new colleagues (women) at work. The general tone of the conversation about clothes etc they were totally accepting. In addition I've noticed that the personal space women give me at meetings where there a lot of people has become much smaller. Evidence points to significant progress.

[Laurie]

 Hi K

  Glad to read the latest posts from you. Consulting for surgery, wearing tight skirts, fitting in better with the women at work. yep it reads like progress to me. Sorry to read about things still being a bit rocky on the home front but hang in there girl.

Hugs,
   Laurie

[krobinson103]

I'm not the only gender non conforming at person at work. The next door class has a gender fluid Teachers Assistant. Maybe with more of us it might become a bit more normalized.

[krobinson103]

Just an interesting observation on how to build customer loyalty. I went to two different dollar stores today to get some things we needed. As background its Saturday and I shaved and moisturized but applied no makeup and my clothes are just on the feminine side of gender neutral (feeling lazy!) Even I can see that there is a bit of shadow without the concealer. Not much but enough I think. In addition I have a cold so voice is... not ideal today.

In the first, they were welcoming and used the correct form of address no less than three times in 2 minutes.

In the second He was surely, stared at my breasts, and would barely communicate with me at all.

Hmm... I have to wonder where I'll be going if I need something next time?

[Donna]

I was in a local 7/11 the other day and the lady in at that time always sits me even after correcting her. Her male cohort sired my twice so just to be snarled I read them both the riot act. I point blank said I don't think you have seen a sir with long hair , painted nails woman's cloths and breasts yet you insist on calling me sir. I didn't care who was there. The next morning I had to stop in when our coffee cream went bad and the same male was there and was more than pleasant calling me ma'am the whole time I was there. Some people learn quick

[krobinson103]

How is it that you can feel sick, sound like a bullfrog due to a cold, not bother with makeup, wear
gender neutral clothes, yet still get more gender acceptance than usual? Sometimes its a mystery to me. Even the people who insist on siring me got it right today.

[Allison S]

In addition I've noticed that the personal space women give me at meetings where there a lot of people has become much smaller.

That's something I'm having to get used to with strangers when I'm "presenting" and wearing my sunglasses. I don't like it with men either. Look but don't touch does apply.

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[krobinson103]

https://www.flickr.com/photos/142425753@N03/shares/72q9P6

Yay! Hips are catching up with the rest of me. Go HRT!

[Northern Star Girl]

https://www.flickr.com/photos/142425753@N03/shares/72q9P6

Yay! Hips are catching up with the rest of me. Go HRT!

Dear Krobinson103.... Thanks for including a link to your photo... you are looking good. 
My experience is that when HRT starts doing it's job the results become more frequently dramatic and significant as time goes on. 

This is all very exciting for sure.
Thank you for keeping us updated.
Hugs,
Danielle

[ChrissyRyan]

Today I met two new colleagues (women) at work. The general tone of the conversation about clothes etc they were totally accepting. In addition I've noticed that the personal space women give me at meetings where there a lot of people has become much smaller. Evidence points to significant progress.

That is wonderful to hear!

Chrissy

[krobinson103]

Yesterday I found out my eldest daughters true feelings about my transition. She thinks I'm crazy and should be in a mental hospital. I feel sad that She cannot follow me on this journey. However, I knew the cost might be high. I've lost my wife, and my daughter may or may not accept me. If the price of my life and future happiness is my family, so be it.

[Northern Star Girl]

Yesterday I found out my eldest daughters true feelings about my transition. She thinks I'm crazy and should be in a mental hospital. I feel sad that She cannot follow me on this journey. However, I knew the cost might be high. I've lost my wife, and my daughter may or may not accept me. If the price of my life and future happiness is my family, so be it.

@krobinson103:   This is obviously very difficult for you to deal with...  I am certain that with this revelation from your daughter that this is extremely distressing for you to say the least.
You have my best wishes in mind and I trust that there can be a way for you to handle your transition is such a way that your relationships can be healed.
My heart breaks for you about this....
Hugs and more hugs,
Danielle

[krobinson103]

A rock and a hard place

I have responsibilities to support my daughters and provide my 'wife' who cares nothing about me with what they need to establish themselves. She is still not 100% capable of supporting herself here. The kids need a Father, but other than my youngest no one even wants me in the house besides what I can provide. So I pay the bills, sort out the problems, but at all turns get criticized for not doing anything well enough, that I'm 'embarrassing' and even crazy.

I know that what I'm doing is essential for my continued happiness or if I wish to continue to keep living at all. This is me, has always been me and I don't care what others think, see, or even say about it. In fact if I lose EVERYTHING of my past life its still worth the price.

I can't leave my family in their current state, I can't live in this house the way things are. Right now there is no way we can support two households, it would be foolish in the extreme. I'm sure there is a way forward but right now I can't see it...

Tomorrow WILL be an awesome day.. somehow.

[Allison S]

I don't know the details of your life and household, but it always sounds explosive to me. I know how bad it is to want to transition and be our true selves. It just sounds like your family is having a very hard time coming to terms with things...?
It's just a hard situation to be in.
They definitely need time to adjust. I wish changing genders was more widely accepted and understood.

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