A totally awesome day

[Jenny1969]

Krobinson103

I look forward to watching you on your journey. I love what you have done to make a special place just for you. The she shed looks great.

Jenny

[krobinson103]

Well.. date number 2 is setup and... its open ended so I have no idea as to how it ends.
Date number three will be to our trans xmas party the weekend after.

Things go well!

[ChrissyRyan]

Well.. date number 2 is setup and... its open ended so I have no idea as to how it ends.
Date number three will be to our trans xmas party the weekend after.

Things go well!

Sounds good Kelly!

Chrissy

[Northern Star Girl]

Well.. date number 2 is setup and... its open ended so I have no idea as to how it ends.
Date number three will be to our trans xmas party the weekend after.

Things go well!

@krobinson103
Wow-zers... advance planning of dates, this all sounds quite serious to me.
Wishing you well... and remember, if you can't be good, at least be very careful!!!   LOL 

Thanks for keeping us all updated,
Hugs,
Danielle

[krobinson103]

@krobinson103
Wow-zers... advance planning of dates, this all sounds quite serious to me.
Wishing you well... and remember, if you can't be good, at least be very careful!!!   LOL 

Thanks for keeping us all updated,
Hugs,
Danielle

This one is different I think. She is a good match... cautiously optimistic.

[krobinson103]

Well today there zero breast pain, and I'm completely stable emotionally which is a massive difference to this time last week. Go figure. I shall wait and see what happens in 3 weeks time.

[Northern Star Girl]

Well today there zero breast pain, and I'm completely stable emotionally which is a massive difference to this time last week. Go figure. I shall wait and see what happens in 3 weeks time.

@krobinson103
I will be looking for your update report about this monthly phenomena the week before Christmas. 
It will be interesting for sure.  I know that I have heard this sort of thing about transwomen, but not real often.

Do consider however that the mind is a powerful thing, it one thinks something will happen they might discover that it will.

Hugs,
Danielle

[krobinson103]

Sore today. Needed pain killers. I'm finally happy with the colour of hair now at least.

https://www.flickr.com/photos/142425753@N03/shares/34T32V

[Northern Star Girl]

Sore today. Needed pain killers. I'm finally happy with the colour of hair now at least.

https://www.flickr.com/photos/142425753@N03/shares/34T32V

@krobinson103
So sorry to hear about your continued breast pain...  thankfully there are pain killers that work for you but it is obviously best to get off the the pain meds as soon as you can.

Your natural hair and new color look terrific, but of course I am very partial to blonde hair.   Fortunately, blonde hair is my natural hair color but as I have been getting older, some gray hairs are starting to pop in so I do visit the hair salon every other month or so to get my blonde color touched up.

By the way, your eyebrows are looking great... do you shape them yourself or did you get some help right at first...

Thanks for sharing your latest photo... you look great!!!
Hugs,
Danielle

[krobinson103]

@krobinson103
So sorry to hear about your continued breast pain...  thankfully there are pain killers that work for you but it is obviously best to get off the the pain meds as soon as you can.

Your natural hair and new color look terrific, but of course I am very partial to blonde hair.   Fortunately, blonde hair is my natural hair color but as I have been getting older, some gray hairs are starting to pop in so I do visit the hair salon every other month or so to get my blonde color touched up.

By the way, your eyebrows are looking great... do you shape them yourself or did you get some help right at first...

Thanks for sharing your latest photo... you look great!!!
Hugs,
Danielle

Thanks. The eyebrows are just what I came up with. Careful shaving and patience. My natural hair is 40% grey now so I dye every 5 weeks or so each time going for a lighter shade.

[krobinson103]

Minimal pain today maybe 2/10 when I got up in the morning. Took a pain pill anyway because as I move around during the day its sure to get to a 4 or 5. I think the evening primrose oil and iodine supplements are helping.

[krobinson103]

Couldn't sleep very well last night too much pain. Maybe 4/10. Took a pill this morning and feel pretty good.

[Northern Star Girl]

Couldn't sleep very well last night too much pain. Maybe 4/10. Took a pill this morning and feel pretty good.

@krobinson103
I am a little more than concerned for you regarding your continued and sometimes serious breast pain that you have been reporting lately.
 
What does your doctor say about it?

I sincerely hope that all of the pain will pass and be gone soon.
Hugs,
Daneille

[krobinson103]

@krobinson103
I am a little more than concerned for you regarding your continued and sometimes serious breast pain that you have been reporting lately.
 
What does your doctor say about it?

I sincerely hope that all of the pain will pass and be gone soon.
Hugs,
Daneille

transition related second puberty pains. I just happened to land a painful one. Should be a little better after orchie and less drugs in the system. Been a year now and as t is reduced to female norms by the implant the pain just gets worse. I suspect as long as there is breast growth it will hurt.

[krobinson103]

Today three colleagues said something that me pause and take stock. One, a mentor of sorts said he didn't understand my choices re transition as he is quite religious but respected them and that as a person and a professional I had what he called 'grit'. The ability to always do more regardless to meet expectations and overcome obstacles. He said this is a rare thing. I'm not sure it is, and feel that anyone who wants something badly enough will do what it takes to make it happen - and that's all I am doing.

Two women I work with said something else. They said they admired me for being just who I am regardless of the consequences and potential stigma or consequences. Again, apparently this not common, and again I struggle to understand why. The only way to truly engage with other people is to first be true to yourself and accept who you are with no doubt or fear. To me this truth is self evident! I don't see it as adttirable just necessary.

Many have said I am brave. But again what is a life lived with your true self in shadow? Surely again this not bravery but necessity?

Yes... my thoughts weigh heavy this night mainly because I can't sleep! Pain keeps me awake (note for diary 5/10 tonight). Also in about 14 hours I leave for my date! Exciting stuff and its keeping me awake.

[krobinson103]

Last nights date...

As usual we chose a movie that I would rate 5/10 at best! However we went to a burger place after, and then being in a small town where night life is a foreign word, drove back to her place and sat in the car for an hour or two talking. (Her house was a mess and she didn't want anyone to see it lol)

I was right, chemistry is definitely there, intellectually we fit and her interests gel with mine. She is easy to talk to and she understands my situation and current domestic arrangements. I can see that under her understandable caution there is a a fun and caring person. Last night we talked out some important baselines and both decided that while more time is needed, continuing to date each other is a good idea. In some ways her thought processes are remarkably similar to mine

So, xmas party next Saturday with my local transgender group. Once again, patience is key to the whole thing...

[krobinson103]

Hmm no pain to speak of today which is good. I went to the pool with my daughter as usual and I realized four things:

1) Women come in many shapes and sizes and I don't look too bad in a swim suit
2) I don't feel self conscious at at all.
3) No one even notices a slight bulge or if they do they don't care.
4) My daughter can call me 'daddy' all she likes and you know what? It doesn't matter cause I am.

I like my skin and feel comfortable in it.

[Northern Star Girl]

Hmm no pain to speak of today which is good. I went to the pool with my daughter as usual and I realized four things:

1) Women come in many shapes and sizes and I don't look too bad in a swim suit
2) I don't feel self conscious at at all.
3) No one even notices a slight bulge or if they do they don't care.
4) My daughter can call me 'daddy' all she likes and you know what? It doesn't matter cause I am.

I like my skin and feel comfortable in it.

@krobinson103
Kudos to you for your positive and confident attitude regarding your body... and your terrific emotional approach to your transition journey.

You are right about being at the swimming pool and finding all shapes, sizes, and appearances in their swim suits....  you have nothing to be self-conscious about for sure.

It was nice to read your recap of your date... and that you both had similar interests and life stories.   Yes indeed, patience is a virtue.

Thank you for keeping us updated...
Hugs,
Danielle

[krobinson103]

last couple of days I've been experimenting with diet a bit.

I noticed that if I eat meat in particular I get worse breast pain so I figured since Alicia is Vegan I'd try some of what she eats for a few days. So last night it was all vegetarian and the same this morning. I noticed that today I have zero breast pain. This correlates with observations earlier that 2-3 hours after eating chicken etc I always got worse breast pain. I did some research and there is some real science out there that correlates to this.

To this end I'm going to eat no meat or dairy for the next two weeks and see if it is indeed a factor. Being pain free is nice.

[krobinson103]

A good day. Feeling positive this morning. No pain to speak of and my weight is at a record low for the last 4 months. Life goes well, and... only two weeks till school is finished for the year! Its been a long and complex year and I look forward to some downtime.