After lots of reflecting and a bit over a year on the rollercoaster that is transition I've come to a decision.
Now that I've found a partner who can accept (and welcomes) me as I am with elements of both female and male I've decided that after orchiodectomy I'm going to call transition done. There are a number of reasons;
1) I discovered that transition was never about moving to a gender, but discovering me.
2) I really don't mind having a penis - its rather useful at times! (and still works enough to be so)
3) Once my testicles are gone I have no bridge back and the remaining dysphoria will be gone
4) I really like being in my skin... it fits me and feels right.
So I figure srs is a step too far and I'm quite happy to me... just the way I am and I suppose somewhere in the middle towards the female side of the spectrum. In addition I don't care, never have cared, and never will care what strangers see or don't see. I get gendered female 95% of the time and I suppose I could bring that number up if I cared to try but I feel happy just the way I am.
So... once orchiodectomy is done is 2-3 months time I'm getting off this train and getting on with life.
So much hope and possibility up ahead I can't help but be sure the next 40 are going to be great.