Strangest thing happened this week. I've considered my penis to be... left over for a while now and have rarely felt it. Lately when my gf wants to... play ... she has played with the end of it. Thing is I don't feel it there... I feel it where a clitoris would be and its to say the least... intense! Its like I have mental map that fits what I see as ideal and my body is mapping sensation around that.
Since it barely even responds in the usual way and is small to say the least I've decided to reassign it as a pointy out clitoris in my head till I can do something about it.
More and more my body is conforming to what I always wanted it to be and it feels... FABULOUS. Dysphoria exists but its no longer pressing since I know I have plans in place to remove the source.
On other fronts I have moved out of my house and now only spend 1-2 days a week there to manage practical finances, maintenance, and see the kids. Alicia and I have a bond that is unlike anything I've ever experienced and gets stronger every day. She challenges me to face my left over fears (short dresses etc) and pushes me to as she says emerge fully. She is my rock and my cheering section when the little voices of dysphoria and self doubt creep in. She is definitely a keeper! I want to be with her till we are both old and grey...