Jo Bloggs (formally The Rambles of Shambles)

[Northern Star Girl]

Possible male fail last weekend though was just one time. Was in a shop and this bloke kept looking at me, would like to think he was thinking is that a guy or a girl but he could have just been looking at the stuff behind me for all i know 

Decovered the power of photo editing ))

http://imgur.com/a/0FOfPKB

@Shambles
Looking really good in the picture link that you posted... no way could you male-fail looking as feminine as you do... and nice hair and lipstick....
Thank you for sharing...
Hugs,
Danielle

[Shambles]

Thanks @Alaskan Danielle & @davina61

The make up was enhanced by a bit of editing but i do like that colour, need to get some ). The umm chest area may or may not have been increased too! It's more of a representation of where i wanna be rather than right now i suppose but defiantly gives me ideas going forward

[Shambles]

New scalf and a haircut, its the small things in life 

[Northern Star Girl]

@Shambles
Dear Jo:
Thank you for sharing your new photo... your hair looks great, and your hat and scarf are nice additions to your wintertime warmer clothing. 

Again, thank you for posting and updating all of us.
Best Wishes,
Danielle

New scalf and a haircut, its the small things in life 

[Sonja]

New scalf and a haircut, its the small things in life 

@Shambles
Hey Joanna!

Love this photo! very sweet & lovely. I also love the previous BUT I can't decide which one I love the most.....hmmm..slightly different vibe coming from each. But both very cute!

Have you tried doing your makeup to look like the 'digital enhance' ? - I would love to see that! With a bit of practice I reckon you would find a fantastic 'look' the purple tone lipstick goes really well with the turquoise top.

Take care, XO

Sonja.

[Shambles]

@sonja No not tried that, been focusing on other things really

It's a year tomorrow that Jo came to the surface and said i'm here, you cant get rid of me this time so suppose it's time to reflect.

I've met new friends along the way but i'm now out too 11 people and want to make that 13 in a few weeks. Fully out at one workplace and management chain know at the other. Most close family know and would like to round that off soon. Coming out to people has gotten less scary and feels more natural.

Looking at pics thoughout the year i can see changes through the months, rather than saying ok what's next to be done the question has changed to what's stopping me going full time and work on those areas. There's still work to be done but its getting there.

Anxiety and stress is still there but guess if it wasn't i'd be ok stopping so we carry on right!

79lbs lost from a target of 126

With the changes so far i've noticed recently as i meet new people on occasion they dont know if im male or female at 1st even when in man mode so i'm seeing that as a positive, it can be quite funny at times at other times its obvious that they clock me as trans in male mode but i'd sooner that than hey your a dude, dude.

All being said, i'm still here, i've not crammed Jo back in a box and i'm still moving forward. Happy birthday for tomorrow Jo!

[Moonflower]

  Jo! Your signature says you came out one year ago today! How do you want to mark the significance of this day?

[davina61]

Nearly missed this , Happy transversary .XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[Shambles]

Hey thanks )) you know i remebered about it for weeks and complelty forgot on the day! Was gonna get a little cake and everythin lol

Been down this week? Little things keep making me angry. I know ive made a load of proggress in the last year but cant help thinking its not enough. Sware everyone knows at work, its like a big fat elephant in the room now!

[davina61]

Yes missed my 1 year full time by 6 days. Well if everyone knows is it time to come out and be Joanna at work?

[Shambles]

Theres a good chance i wont be there in 6-9 months, kinda trying to put things off but never saying never. Theres also a coulle more things i wanna do aroind appearance before im comfortable enougg to do this. Kinda sounds like im.making ezcuses but im not far off the end of the road when it comes too full time

[Shambles]

Got my new glasses this week and wearing them all the time, not gonna keep switching over from new to old. 1st day wearing them at work was Thursday and someone i've known for years came upto me while at my desk (within earshot of 2 others) and basically asked me is everything ok and i am transgender. Was hoping no one would ever ask me that but was expecting someone too sooner or later. Skirted the question and guided it away, didn't comfirm or deny my stance. It was more what i didn't say than said that would tell them stuff but i dont know if they would have picked up on that.

Wrote a draft email that i could use if i wish to come out at work, even if i dont ever use it it was a nice thing to do in order to get things straight in my head. There's something about writing your thoughts down and looking at it after, seeing if it sounds right and true to yourself or picking up the parts that arn't quite right.

Might try and get ppl to use a unisex verson of my male name as a compromise for the time being, some people already use it anyway and would make me feel more comfortable.

I'm now waiting for an appoitment to come through to get hormone tests to see what's going on with me as a pre hrt "male" with boobs, had to avoid GP and come out to the specialists that i see every few months for my eye. I just wanna know what's going on.

Anyway, here's me!



Starting to see me in the mirror now and not a stranger looking back, body's looking female and in my eyes face is a mix of both.

Jo xx

[Moonflower]

Got my new glasses this week and wearing them all the time, not gonna keep switching over from new to old.

Yea! Nice!

1st day wearing them at work was Thursday and someone i've known for years came upto me while at my desk (within earshot of 2 others) and basically asked me is everything ok and i am transgender.

What a challenge!

Was hoping no one would ever ask me that but was expecting someone too sooner or later. Skirted the question

Great way to put it: "skirted"

and guided it away, didn't comfirm or deny my stance. It was more what i didn't say than said that would tell them stuff but i dont know if they would have picked up on that.

Wrote a draft email that i could use if i wish to come out at work, even if i dont ever use it it was a nice thing to do in order to get things straight in my head. There's something about writing your thoughts down and looking at it after, seeing if it sounds right and true to yourself or picking up the parts that arn't quite right.

Same here. I love writing, editing, rewriting, putting it aside to edit later, getting feedback, and eventually knowing that it's time to publish/release it because it can't stand to be connected to me any more.

Might try and get ppl to use a unisex verson of my male name as a compromise for the time being, some people already use it anyway and would make me feel more comfortable.

I've come across a number of people here who did the same thing, and it worked well for them.

I'm now waiting for an appoitment to come through to get hormone tests to see what's going on with me as a pre hrt "male" with boobs, had to avoid GP and come out to the specialists that i see every few months for my eye. I just wanna know what's going on.

Hooray for the progress!

Anyway, here's me!



Starting to see me in the mirror now and not a stranger looking back, body's looking female and in my eyes face is a mix of both.

Jo xx

That must be such an important change. So significant. Such a relief to let Joann out! Such happiness to be seeing Joann smiling back at you in the mirror!

[pamelatransuk]

Congratulations Jo. You look female to me.

Also I wish you the best of luck with the hormone tests.

Hugs

Pamela

[Shambles]

@pamelatransuk thanks )) hard for me to see without hair.

From this angle sure!



of course you dont see my head 

[Shambles]

Hay all, i'm not dead - just been away from susans 

Help here is fantastic and all but there's nothing like trying to limit any outside influences on own mind while going though stuff to make sure it's your own opinion and not something you've picked up from others.

So update.

Weight seams to be stuck again, down 5st 10lb (80lbs) now, finally got GP to give me some hormone tests - that's happening this week, getting alot of ppl thinking they know what's going on now as 38DD is a bit obvious!

Weight's at a point where i wanna start hormones now, just want to know what's going on naturally with me before i mess around with levels.

Finished laser on face, had 12th this weekend. Still need electro but gone as far as i can with the laser.

Not sure how many i'm out too now, its in the area of 25 or so but i'm basically ready to come out to all... not that it'll be a surprise to anyone now. Just got a few things to let family work through 1st as it's gonna be too hard on them right now but hopefully soon.

Been able to identify my big hang ups and where they were blocking me going forward before i can work around them and do things in smaller steps until that point.

Male name now bugs the hell out of me, i've asked everyone openly to switch to a more neutral version of it for now.

Here's my latest faceapp pic (that's a hat that it's decided its hair)


Need to do some more recent pics, not really got anything from this year yet.

Progress is being made, still a few big hurdles ahead though.

Hope everyone's ok x x

[Megan.]

Hey! [emoji3526].  Glad to hear from you, and that life is progressing.

You're right, as great as Susan's is, taking breaks and revalidating your direction without external influences is a wise move.

Keep on keeping on. X

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[pamelatransuk]

Hello Jo

Nice to hear from you again and glad you have made such progress on Weight and Laser. I wish you luck with Electrolysis and with HRT.

Just in case you haven't seen it, here on Transgender Talk Board is the "UK Meet Up" thread which Emma started December 30th and last updated March 3rd. I believe you attended the Birmingham event in September 2018. You are very welcome to come to this one which is in Manchester on March 16th. I am attending this one as Pamela.

I shall copy this reply in a PM to you just to ensure you know about the Meet Up on 16th.

I assume they will take place bi-annually making the third one in September 2019 in a different geographical region.

Hugs

Pamela  xx

[VickyS]

Lookin' FABULOUS there Jo!!!

Well done girl.   

V x

[Moonflower]

Hay all, i'm not dead - just been away from susans 

Good news!

Help here is fantastic and all but there's nothing like trying to limit any outside influences on own mind while going though stuff to make sure it's your own opinion and not something you've picked up from others.

Makes sense. I hope you're feeling more grounded and in tune with yourself.

So update.

Yes! I'm all ears!

Weight seams to be stuck again, down 5st 10lb (80lbs) now, finally got GP to give me some hormone tests - that's happening this week, getting alot of ppl thinking they know what's going on now as 38DD is a bit obvious!

Weight's at a point where i wanna start hormones now, just want to know what's going on naturally with me before i mess around with levels.

Finished laser on face, had 12th this weekend. Still need electro but gone as far as i can with the laser.

Not sure how many i'm out too now, its in the area of 25 or so but i'm basically ready to come out to all... not that it'll be a surprise to anyone now. Just got a few things to let family work through 1st as it's gonna be too hard on them right now but hopefully soon.

Been able to identify my big hang ups and where they were blocking me going forward before i can work around them and do things in smaller steps until that point.

Male name now bugs the hell out of me, i've asked everyone openly to switch to a more neutral version of it for now.

Here's my latest faceapp pic (that's a hat that it's decided its hair)


Need to do some more recent pics, not really got anything from this year yet.

Progress is being made, still a few big hurdles ahead though.

Hope everyone's ok x x

Great progress! Thanks for the update. I'm celebrating with you 🎉🎊🎉