low dose hrt without the hrt? i think i may know what put me over the edge in november and outed me but ive got a gp appointment on friday and my specialist on monday so i might get some answers about this. Lost a bit of weight and on prednisolone for 20 years, i think pred can cause hormones to go a bit wacky, i know they have given me boobs over the years so i know they are effecting my hormones somewhat.
1) In november i had alredy lost a bit of weight and from what i read burning fat can increase estrogen levels even in men, not sure if it converts it or releases it or what but it can increase
2) prednisolone effects, i have been altering the dose over the last 6 months trying to decrease it safely
3) underlying thoughts / feelings
The combination of the three might have been to much to handle and it broke me. I know though this isn't just an inbalance issue as i can point to events before i started taking them that still make me female and wouldn't want to give up these feelings for anyone but it might turn out that ive had my estrogen boosted since i was 15. I'm going to ask for some blood tests as well as the referral i just hope the gp will still refer me if i ask for the bloods, might just get the referral from the gp then ask for the bloods from my specialist on monday.. that might be a safer option
Would be cool if this is the case, as it might mean my face is more passable than i think under all the face fat lol. I know that the 5 o'clock shadow for me comes the following day and can go a couple of days without shaving when others need to do this everyday so it wouldn't surprise me
Been thinking about stuff from the past as denial me and sexuality. Was bi curious but never really acted on it, seamed not right man to man but thoughts still there... that should have been a sign.
Always thought i might have been a bit of a perv and that was wrong with me, attracted to girls outside my age range but if i see someone now its not lust that i see now or in the past.. its jelousy of them in that body
Its unreal how much you can lie and kid yourself, the ability to forget and not catch on just so you can be a normal dull fish in a big school. Id much soon be a bright colourfull fish in a much smaller school now