Dear diary.... lol
So these were my goals on Jan 1st this year, i've come along way since then and feel they need a recap and an update to give some perspective on stuff, it's for my benefit but if it helps others too it's a bonus.
Quote from: Shambles on January 01, 2018, 08:14:07 AM
1) come out to wife
2) come out to others
3) loose that 111lbs, or atleast whats safe in 12 months
4) develop my business more and leave my current job
5) try experimenting with make up / clothes
6) figure out what i am
7) get into a hair routine and dont be obsessive every day
8 ) let me be me
1. Come out to wife.. done
2. Ongoing but some progress made, dragged my heals on this one
3. Weight . ongoing but pleased with progress so far.. their was a lot to loose, people are actually surprised to hear my actual weight as they think i'm much lighter
4. business - on track
5. make up / clothes - this one's always going to be around right? but dont think its a goal anymore, ive been wearing neural or fem stuff even in male mode recently anyway
6. who am i? i'm a transgender woman. Cant say im proud to be this way but i can accept this now and i can say i'm ok being this way
7. hair removal well thats still a thing but it's not making my new list
8. let me be me - struggled alot with identity and being able to let it show, believe im at a point now though where i'm far more comfortable being able to interact with others
So time for a new list, it's far more focused into transition areas and things i need to do or overcome along the way
1) Be more open with wife and talk more
2) Tell parents
3) Come out to a few more people that i can trust, theres a few that already know but theres also a few more i would like in the loop for suport
4) Continue to loose weight, will be nice if i can hit 6 stone lost before end of Oct as that will mark a year since weight loss began. Target still 9 stone in total.
5) Finish lasor on face so i'm at a stage that's more comfortable
6) Start hormones and tell the kids school about this, dont want anything negative around me to effect them
7) Come out to all and go full time
8 ) Name change
9) GRS
10) FFS and elecro on face if / when i can afford it
I know my path now, there's no timescale on this list and will probabiliy take 5 years to complete 9 & 10 but others i would like to do before the end of the year.
While i cant say im comfortable in my skin, i can say for the 1st time in my life it feels like i've got an identity of my own rather than just borrowing someone else's