I had my orchiectomy early this morning. And im so happy and in pain. Dr. Arnkoff is so aswome he has a new clinic with a beautiful design. He is a regular urologist who helps trans people, i relly recommend him his just aswome. I ok now for the surgery part; i won't lie even do i was numb in most area it hurt, hurt in a strange way sence your outside area is numb once they get inside to the spermatic cord ->-bleeped-<- gets real specially if you have a sensitive body. You will feel sometjing sence your awake but let not your body dwell on its own let your brain and heart guide you, get strong use your will remember why your there. Its a mental war your body its begging you to stop but yiu have to take control. Because of my sensitive body the minute they cut the first ball my body went into shut down mode, meaning i was passing out but i infuse it with my will and took it away and immediately became conscious. And even after that horror seen a couple minutes after the second ball was cut i started crying like crazy. It was like instinctively my body knew that a wrong had been fixed. Up untill that day i consider transexualism a mental disorder but as i saw my body crying it felt so real like i had hope that i could actually be happy one day it was such a spiritual experience even do i was in pain. I did travel alone which i am used to(the doctors are there for you so communicate with them). But I'm happy i travel alone i don't think i would want my gamily seeing me on the table as my body twisted, turned and contracted from the pain. I go back tomorrow at 8 am. Lets see what else people in detroit are crazy drivers even with ice on the streets they somehow want you to drive at 50 mph which is infuriating. If you have any questions or want a picture let me know I'll continue to update a will start a new update thread in 3 months.
