Hi friends 🌸🌸🌸 I've been under the weather for a bit now. I wish I had realized I had a sinus infection earlier. Evidently while I was under GA and having assisted breathing, my troublesome sinuses decided they would stop draining and compacted, allowing for nasties to grow. I went to my GP. The last time I saw him was at my physical last June. That was the time he couldn't gender me correctly repeatedly. This time the first thing he said "My, you've changed!". No misgendering. I will admit the last time I wasn't presenting as a woman, but was this time.
He diagnosed my problem and prescribed antibiotics. Last dose on Christmas, so I'm hoping to feel up to cooking the large meal I have planned for family.
I present androgynously to family, definitely much more feminine as time goes by. Eventually it will be too obvious not to recognize that I am not the dad, brother, son or uncle that they saw before. Even when I've gone out for lunch with friends like Michelle, I only use mascara and lipstick for makeup, I don't think I need the rest to show my pretty side any longer.
Had a heart to heart with my sweetie. Our relationship has always been on the flip side of traditional roles, her being the stoic one, me much more emotional. She had gone through menopause a few years back and hadn't been interested in sex for a while. I of course have had a decrease in my needs also, but told her I missed the embraces that gave me the secure feeling of our love. My awakening to the freedom to express more fully my emotions gave me the strength to tell her, "I don't need the sex, I crave being held close and that's where my comfort lays" even though she never has been one to emote, she said that she will do better at recognizing my needs. Big hugs and silent embrace ensued. We do love each other deeply.
Hugs and smiles from a California girl
