Jess’s mess

[Jessica]

@Alaskan Danielle

@Jessica
Dear Jess:
What a wonderful thing for your sweetie to do. 
Very thoughtful of her and very beautiful flowers just for you!!![emoji173]
So, the obvious question is what are you two planning to do special today or this evening for this special day in both of your lives?
Hugs,
Danielle

I truly was brought to tears when she gave them to me.  I had left a cute Valentines card on her bedside table, as I am an early riser.  She woke to it and loved it.  Before she woke I mused to myself, "I wonder if she will give me roses".  Imagine my smile when she did.  She got multiple hugs and kisses.
She works the afternoon/night shift today and as always when she gets home I prepare supper for her.
She is partial to fried chicken, mashed taters and green beans.  Guess what is on the menu?

Hugs and smiles, Jess

[Andie1963]

I fixed that typo, damn autocorrect

I needed this, it put a smile on my face and in my heart.

Thank you so much for auto correct! Happy Valentine's Day all of you beautiful people!

Andie


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[Jessica]

@Andie1963

I needed this, it put a smile on my face and in my heart.

Thank you so much for auto correct! Happy Valentine's Day all of you beautiful people!

Andie


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Wow, that goes back to the start of Jess's Mess.
Thank you for taking a gander at my musings. 
Hopefully you can avoid the pitfalls I hit. 

Hmmmmmm.......maybe I should read them again?
That is the reason I started it.....to be able to look back.

I'm happy I was able to put a smile on your face! 
Especially today...everyone deserves to smile on Valentines Day 💕💕💕💕

Hugs and smiles from a California girl

[Andie1963]

@Andie1963

Wow, that goes back to the start of Jess's Mess.
Thank you for taking a gander at my musings. 
Hopefully you can avoid the pitfalls I hit. 

Hmmmmmm.......maybe I should read them again?
That is the reason I started it.....to be able to look back.

I'm happy I was able to put a smile on your face! 
Especially today...everyone deserves to smile on Valentines Day [emoji177][emoji177][emoji177][emoji177]

Hugs and smiles from a California girl

You are so right about smiling and please don't ever change.  You are a wonderful person to know. I love your attitude so much [emoji3590][emoji3590][emoji257][emoji257]


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[Donica]

Yay Jess! That was a wonderful Valentines post of you and your wife. Whoohoo! Flowers.

There's a warm wind blowing the stars around. Happy Valentines day to you both.

[Jessica]

Hi friends, for those that still visit this thread, thank you.
Life definitely has its ups and downs.
While I do appreciate and enjoy the many ups.......
The downs can be right scary!

[sarah1972]

My dear Jessica -

Downs always provide a chance to grow as well. And of course, there are always friends providing a shoulder to lean on.

Stay strong and please let me know if I can help!

Hugs,

Sarah

Hi friends, for those that still visit this thread, thank you.
Life definitely has its ups and downs.
While I do appreciate and enjoy the many ups.......
The downs can be right scary!

[Stevi]

Jessica,

Hi!  You OK?

I hope there is nothing too distressing going on with you.  We do visit and keep an eye on one another.  At this moment, there are four of us, three logged in and a guest, here looking in on you.

Stevi

[steph2.0]

Hi friends, for those that still visit this thread, thank you.
Life definitely has its ups and downs.
While I do appreciate and enjoy the many ups.......
The downs can be right scary!

I'm still here and reading, and wish you the best, as always!

Stephanie

[JudiBlueEyes]

Still here too and still following your journey!  We do seem to need to balance the highs in life with the lows we experience.  That we survive and prosper is good sign.  Yes you are doing well. 

[Donica]

Ditto Jess! I'm here for you too. Don't make me come up there or I swear I'll...... Well, from one Cali girl to another Cali girl! Big hugs!!!

[Northern Star Girl]

@Jessica:
My Dear Jess:
Even though, when reading my threads and comments around the Forums it may not appear to be so, but I definitely have my most enjoyable "ups" but I also have many discouraging and disappointing moments of being very "down"  ....  I probably do a pretty good job of disguising or dismissing my "down" times here on the forums, but as you and just about every other member here I do indeed find those "down" times to be quite "scary" and very disheartening and awfully depressing. 
As you know I am an Optimistic Glass Half Full personality but there are some very bad times that I go through so my glass may not be so full sometimes....   so please know that you are not alone with your feelings.

OH.... and you also need to know that when I login to the Forums that your thread is one of the very FIRST ones that I look at and read... and I may even send you a PM or two many days. 
Please never get the feeling that no one looks for your thread, reads your ramblings and follows your life adventures.... you have a lot of followers... and I am the self-appointed head of your Fan Club !!!

Many Hugs and well wishes,   [emoji175]
Danielle

Hi friends, for those that still visit this thread, thank you.
Life definitely has its ups and downs.
While I do appreciate and enjoy the many ups.......
The downs can be right scary!

[Michelle_P]

Jess, I hope the 'downs' are not too bad.  I'm here, just minutes away, girl!

There are rumors of @Laurie being here soon as well.  The honey badgers are restless...

Hugs,
Michelle

[Jessica]

Thank you all for the nice replies.
I didn't mean to sound needy.
Jess's Mess is a place for me to reflect, now and in the future.
I don't expect others to know what I need.
I will find solutions to my down moments.
I have no choice.  It is up to me to do.

[steph2.0]

Thank you all for the nice replies.
I didn't mean to sound needy.
Jess's Mess is a place for me to reflect, now and in the future.
I don't expect others to know what I need.
I will find solutions to my down moments.
I have no choice.  It is up to me to do.

But never forget that you don't have to do it alone. We all love you and will help if we can.


Stephanie

[Northern Star Girl]

Thank you all for the nice replies.
I didn't mean to sound needy.
Jess's Mess is a place for me to reflect, now and in the future.
I don't expect others to know what I need.
I will find solutions to my down moments.
I have no choice.  It is up to me to do.

@Jessica
Dear Jess:
You are not alone and you are NOT the only one that can help yourself.
    You have your caring and supporting followers at your side to help you as we are able.

You do NOT sound needy.... YOU  SOUND NORMAL
We all have our down moments and I most certainly do as I wrote in my previous reply comment here on your thread.

The nice thing about having your own thread is that you can write out and vent and "air" your difficulties and issues....
...and that alone is great personal therapy, but the really good thing is that your caring and concerned followers can lend you our ear to listen and our shoulder to lean on... along with our positive and supportive words of encouragement.   
All of that allows to to more effectively ponder your situation and consider positive solutions and actions to get you back into your happy place. 

As you are quite aware, I have TWO THREADS, links below, that may be helpful to you or to anyone that wants to share and vent their down times and/or to share their good times and positive solutions with other like-minded members.
Hugs and best wishes as always...
Danielle        (your self-appointed Fan Club leader!!!)

    "Positive Mindset... put away negativity"

        "Susans Writers and Book Readers"
                 

[Charlie Nicki]

@Alaskan Danielle

I truly was brought to tears when she gave them to me.  I had left a cute Valentines card on her bedside table, as I am an early riser.  She woke to it and loved it.  Before she woke I mused to myself, "I wonder if she will give me roses".  Imagine my smile when she did.  She got multiple hugs and kisses.
She works the afternoon/night shift today and as always when she gets home I prepare supper for her.
She is partial to fried chicken, mashed taters and green beans.  Guess what is on the menu?

Hugs and smiles, Jess

Must be nice to have someone to celebrate it with . You guys are such a cute couple!

[Jessica]

@Charlie Nicki @Alaskan Danielle @Steph2.0 @Michelle_P @Donica @JudiBlueEyes @Stevi @sarah1972

Must be nice to have someone to celebrate it with . You guys are such a cute couple!

Thank you hon!  We celebrate our love daily, we really do.  That is the why of my slow going in full transitioning.  She is still in the throes of sorting out her needs and I respect that.
You may have noticed I've had some issues lately ( I'm sorry I hadn't reached out directly to you) and it is not because of her.

Thank you all for the nice replies.
I didn't mean to sound needy.
Jess's Mess is a place for me to reflect, now and in the future.
I don't expect others to know what I need.
I will find solutions to my down moments.
I have no choice.  It is up to me to do.

Love comes in many forms and I've grown to care for several friends here and elsewhere, cis and transgender.  Acceptance also come in many forms, ranging from entirely to apprehensive.  Acceptance doesn't even have to be based on transitioning, sometimes it's their own need to sort out their own thoughts that gives apprehension, others just love you in any form. 
We all struggle with acceptance, it's human nature.

Hugs and smiles, Jessica

[LizK]

Hi friends, for those that still visit this thread, thank you.
Life definitely has its ups and downs.
While I do appreciate and enjoy the many ups.......
The downs can be right scary!

The downs are probably the most difficult to deal with...this is when you lean on your friends.

I see such a change from the person who first started this thread and it was lovely to see your beloved making progress as well. It's a tough gig for all those involved but your naturally loving nature stands you in good stead.

Liz



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[Jessica]

@LizK

The downs are probably the most difficult to deal with...this is when you lean on your friends.

I see such a change from the person who first started this thread and it was lovely to see your beloved making progress as well. It's a tough gig for all those involved but your naturally loving nature stands you in good stead.

Liz



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Thank you so much Liz!
I really appreciate you telling me this.
It reminds me that all the ups certainly outweigh the downs!

Hugs and smiles, Jess