Bari Jo's Corner

[Megan.]

You said my magic word.  I always wanted to be a pixie:)  I'm no genius with eyeliner.  I actually use very little and bed it in.  Every time I try and push the makeup for glamour I fail miserably.  I only do subtle subtle subtle now!
OMG your hair is so long.  So jealous.  Did that take years?

Bari Jo

I do minimal makeup, my new avatar is no makeup,  just tinted lashes and brows. For work I put on some foundation,  a little blusher and lipstick,  that's it, never more. [emoji5]

It's been 22 months since they shaved my head for the transplants. I get it cut every 6 weeks,  but usually only triming the ends.

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[Faith]

Hmm, I'm experimenting with makeup.  The beard is still too thick, but I'm getting closer to swapping my avatar.  I can't wait to restore my hairline!

Bari Jo



What do you think?  I updated the picts with one with a better smile.  Wow a smile really helps.

There she is, Bari Jo is shining through. It's about time to replace that avatar!!

[Bari Jo]

Thanks Faith, maybe might wait a bit longer.  22 months Megan!  I'm going in to get my hair restored very soon, and I will lose all this nice hair for a bit:(

Bari Jo

[bobbisue]

Hmm, I'm experimenting with makeup.  The beard is still too thick, but I'm getting closer to swapping my avatar.  I can't wait to restore my hairline!

Bari Jo



What do you think?  I updated the picts with one with a better smile.  Wow a smile really helps.

Wow girl you look great I would be jealous but I try to avoid that too negative but envy! that I can do, you are on your way look out world here comes a blonde bombshell
   by the way my hair in my avatar took 15 months from a buzz cut and bald patches with finasteride and minoxidil

     bobbisue

[Bari Jo]

Thanks, this is really a confidence boost and knowledge gained.  A smile and makeup really makes the difference.   Without either one, I am gendered male by that stupid how-old.net site.  If I change a bit more so I'm gendered female without makeup, I'll be smiling all the time!

Bari Jo

[Roll]

I'm not looking forward to the hair restoration shedding and regrowth at all either. ;/

But more importantly... YOUR CONFIDENCE LEVEL!!! Just think how far you've come on confidence by posting this pic, and it is well deserved confidence! I've always believed you had such wonderful potential, and this picture definitely shows that!

[Bari Jo]

Thanks Ellie, yes it really is a boost.  I remember six months ago I was in such a lull since the camera wasn't seeing me as I see me, now I'm starting to show.  It's wonderful!

Bari Jo

[Bari Jo]

Alright I changed it.  I'm scared to think what others see, but excited that I feel like me.

Bari Jo

[Allison S]

Bari Jo! It's incredible how feminine your face is already! I think the makeup you do suits you I really like it.

I'm taking steps too most recently and I think this shows dedication. Summer will be here before we know it!

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[Bari Jo]

Thank you Allison.  It's really coming together for me, and I couldn't be more happy or more surprised.

For new news.  I went to the dry cleaners to pick up a suit I dropped off in November.  I gave my dead name. And the clerk couldn't find it.  He asked if I was sure I brought it there since he's never seen me before.  I have been going there years, so that made me a bit happy.  Then I was realizing he lost my one suit I saved, my one good black suit.  The one I paid a lot for.  I started to be mad.  Then I realized I didn't EVER want to wear that again.  That made me oddly calm.  I told the clerk I would go home and look for the ticket already resigning myself mentally it was gone forever.  Then that afternoon, I was getting a huge closetful of clothes for goodwill basically all black clothes that I won't ever wear.  The black suit was in my closet.  I had already picked it up, maybe months ago.  I didn't remember.  And I oddly don't even want it.  I didn't send to goodwill, but I should have.

What a weird crazy ride of emotions in such a short time.

Bari Jo

[Jessica]

Love your new avatar Bari Jo.  It's a great feeling to feel comfortable enough to post your actual self.  You are beautiful and I'm glad you have opened up to us with your trust that you have for all of us!

[Bari Jo]

Love your new avatar Bari Jo.  It's a great feeling to feel comfortable enough to post your actual self.  You are beautiful and I'm glad you have opened up to us with your trust that you have for all of us!

Thank Jessica.  I feel like I'm following you in your footsteps.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself,so yes we really are doing this!

And less then steller news...

I tore a nail today, on of all things a tea infuser.  I was squeezing the handle of one to open it and somehow caught the nail on it.  It tore from the middle of the nail, so let's just say it's very ugly, but surprisingly not painful.  Still though I got a little choked up.  My nails is one of my favorite things I love about myself physically, so when this happens, sad face.

I'm wondering if the tea infuser was getting revenge on me, since I am replacing it with a new infuser/thermos all in one.  I hear they are vindictive, those little devils.

Bari Jo

[Cassi]

Thank Jessica.  I feel like I'm following you in your footsteps.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself,so yes we really are doing this!

And less then steller news...

I tore a nail today, on of all things a tea infuser.  I was squeezing the handle of one to open it and somehow caught the nail on it.  It tore from the middle of the nail, so let's just say it's very ugly, but surprisingly not painful.  Still though I got a little choked up.  My nails is one of my favorite things I love about myself physically, so when this happens, sad face.

I'm wondering if the tea infuser was getting revenge on me, since I am replacing it with a new infuser/thermos all in one.  I hear they are vindictive, those little devils.

Bari Jo

Only tea kettles get mad and attack their users.

[Jessica]

Thank Jessica.  I feel like I'm following you in your footsteps.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself,so yes we really are doing this!

And less then steller news...

I tore a nail today, on of all things a tea infuser.  I was squeezing the handle of one to open it and somehow caught the nail on it.  It tore from the middle of the nail, so let's just say it's very ugly, but surprisingly not painful.  Still though I got a little choked up.  My nails is one of my favorite things I love about myself physically, so when this happens, sad face.

I'm wondering if the tea infuser was getting revenge on me, since I am replacing it with a new infuser/thermos all in one.  I hear they are vindictive, those little devils.

Bari Jo

I've been getting my nails done with powder dip, successive layers of polish and a powder.  They are quite hard, but I needed to trim my fret fingers and they slightly shattered.  I should have gone in to the salon. 🙇‍♀️

[Bari Jo]

I've been getting my nails done with powder dip, successive layers of polish and a powder.  They are quite hard, but I needed to trim my fret fingers and they slightly shattered.  I should have gone in to the salon. 🙇‍♀️

Yes Jess:) I know I should get them done professionally with the hard stuff, but I really like doing them myself.  It's a little feminine ritual.  However,,that's maybe I can go to the salon, find out how theyare doing it.  Then practice at home.

And Cassie, the infuser is in league with the kettle!

Bari Jo

[Jessica]

Yes Jess:) I know I should get them done professionally with the hard stuff, but I really like doing them myself.  It's a little feminine ritual.  However,,that's maybe I can go to the salon, find out how theyare doing it.  Then practice at home.

And Cassie, the infuser is in league with the kettle!

Bari Jo

I've been going to the salon with my wife and another girlfriend for a while now. 
I feel like such a girl getting my nails done, chatting about stuff guys don't talk about.

[Bari Jo]

I got some good news from work yesterday and today.  I had put in for working four ten hour days a week.  This was turned down almost immediately.  Instead I was offered working from home one day a week, and I could set the hours.  That was approved yesterday.  Today I let all the producers know that I work with.  I got nothing but support, and some people saying they are worried for me.  I'm just saying its for health reasons, which is true.  All my Dr appointments will now happen on that day.  Plus more electrolysis, Yay!

I'm super happy this is going into effect.

Bari Jo

[Roll]

I got some good news from work yesterday and today.  I had put in for working four ten hour days a week.  This was turned down almost immediately.  Instead I was offered working from home one day a week, and I could set the hours.  That was approved yesterday.  Today I let all the producers know that I work with.  I got nothing but support, and some people saying they are worried for me.  I'm just saying its for health reasons, which is true.  All my Dr appointments will now happen on that day.  Plus more electrolysis, Yay!

I'm super happy this is going into effect.

Bari Jo

Great news!!

[Bari Jo]

Today is my first Valentine's Day after I accepted myself.  I'm surprised by the feeling of sadness.  All my life I have sequestered myself away from companionship, love, anything since I was so uncomfortable with myself. This year seeing all the love from couples, I actually feel sadness. I'm realizing I had to learn to accept and love myself before I could accept love from another or give love. I feel that now.  On a day like today it sucks, but it's a reminder that I am more healthy than I was before.  I'm hoping soon, I will be able to love another, crush on someone and let them love me too.

Bari Jo

[Jessica]

Happy Valentine's Day Bari Jo!
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Hugs and squeezes, Jess