Thank you
@Laurie and
@Sonja for the birthday wishes.
Thank you
@Alaskan Danielle for your nice comments and I noticed the timestamp. I hope you still get enough sleep these days between being busy at work, all your activities at Susan's and of course your sprawling social life.
Yes, I do owe a bit of a birthday update. The week is almost over and I wonder where it went.
For some odd reason, I am not much of a Birthday celebrating person. Has not been important to me in a very long time. I do keep thinking for the reason, there must be some deeply hidden bad birthday memory which has not yet surfaced. Transition has brought back a lot of long forgotten and deeply hidden memories. I still managed to celebrate a little bit. We had a nice lunch at a nearby place we have never been to but wanted to go for a very long time. It turned out to be a great place and I am sure we will go again, very tasty too and the leftovers ended in a salad that night. The real highlight of the day was going to feed ducks in a local park, something Kiddo enjoys a lot and she had a blast. We then went for ice cream at a nearby custard place. That is where the guy congratulated on my pregnancy.
I completely agree with you
@Alaskan Danielle, I would never ask anyone if they are pregnant. I talked to my cis female neighbor about it and she also confirmed that this is not really appropriate. I also have to admit I was really excited about the comment (maybe the glow of a pregnant woman??). Yes, this was one of the most affirming moments I had in a long time for me, He only saw a women with a child on her hand. So yes, a very passing moment.
I also know that assuming pregnancies can be very triggering to trans women. And not only to trans women, for cis-women as well. We struggled for more than 10 years before we got lucky, even though with a lot of help. And there have been many times in these 10 years where any questions related to us not having children or any assumption of a pregnancy would have caused serious meltdowns.
Back to happy thoughts... I have my OB/GYN checkup next week, I can ask her to run a test to make sure. (Still feel odd as pre-op FTM going to an OB/GYN, but she takes care of my hormones too and I really like her). I know this time I will be due for a mammogram referral, so I better make sure I am not pregnant. Also good to know about the cheaper tests at Walmart. Our pharmacy next door charges almost double.
Th rest of the week was a bit of a blur, I was in a melancholic and funky mood most of the time. It finally got a bit better when I went sweating in the gym this morning... Not having been to Zumba for a few weeks really set me back on the routines, so I have to be more diligent. I never realized how much of an impact gym has even outside the scheduled times. The week after next, I'll also start my personal trainer sessions. Something I splurged in to finally get some guidance on workouts.
I am looking forward to the extra long weekend (I took Monday as comp time, Tue and Wed are company holidays). Might allow for some long overdue yard work. We made a last-minute effort to invite a few friends for BBQ and pool party on the 4th, but we have been too late. We still do a BBQ for ourselves, hopefully in a nicely cleaned up yard.
Got to get back to my fashion drama for tonight. It is only another installment of "Summer Concert On The Town Green" but I keep tormenting myself what to wear. To some degree going on a date would be easier, guess I still need to amend my wardrobe. Reminds me of a nice little thing my sister sent me several months ago:
"An entire closet full of nothing to wear". She is sooo right about this.
