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Does lack of anxiety indicate poor awareness and preparedness?

Started by PollyQMcLovely, January 25, 2018, 06:17:38 PM

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PollyQMcLovely

Anyone else get the nagging feeling that they're not experiencing the appropriate amount of apprehension over transitioning? As soon as I learned my insurance would allow me to start HRT and plan for SRS I became single minded in my goal of transitioning.

I keep trying to force myself to stop and focus on all the drawbacks and disadvantages. I try to read up on every angle but nothing seems to faze me. I find it odd that I'm so perfectly content to have my genitals removed and refashioned into a vagina. Shouldn't that freak people out, at least on some level? I also am not concerned with the prospect of losing the dismally few friends I have, of people everywhere being disapproving, or of the lifelong commitment I making.

I'm not complaining, I mean for the first time in my life I actually look forward to the future. I used to curse all the gods whenever I couldn't sleep 16 hours a day, now I bounce out of bed when the alarm for HRT meds goes off.  I'm just ruminating on the idea that I might not be taking things seriously enough.

Do you guys ever second guess yourselves or are you pleased as punch day in and day out?
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KathyLauren

You experience seems to be less common than being consumed with doubts.  But if you are enjoying a smooth ride ... well .... enjoy it!
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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KarlMars

I think it means you're more well prepared and very well adjusted. Give yourself credit!

tgirlamg

Hi Polly!!

I too was at the very low end of the anxiety scale about the whole thing. I pretty much made up my mind to transition on the spot... The moment I saw transition an option and realized I could... I just did it...I figured I was making my life into what I needed it to be and that was a pretty cool and amazing thing to do...

All will be well sister!

Onward we go!!!

Ashley

Ashley 😀🌻❤️
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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LexiDreamer

Do you think maybe the action of asking others to validate your lack of apprehension could be your subconscious' way of questioning whether or not you are prepared?

Our minds are funny things.
I know sometimes I am "full steam ahead" and other times my subconscious starts barking at me to slow down.

Hormonal shifts often play into these things as well.

I'm in no means trying to have you second guess yourself, but instead just help you be aware that there will be many peaks and valleys ahead.

Enjoy the ride. ;)

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rmaddy

So you're worried that you're not anxious enough?  Get on that right away.  The cure is wine.  Red wine.
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Holis

I am facing a same, but different way ahead. I have put a lot of thoughts into it during the last seven years and of course I feel some sort of anxiety, because I know what impact a surgery has had to my life when I was a kid. Now I am much more aware and know what is expecting me. The anxiety of loosing the perspective of becoming the person I feel inside is overwhelmingly bigger. So I guess you can be pretty aware of your actions without fear or let's say with a small degree of fear.

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