Re: Here I go again :-( 2.0

[Jayne01]

   Thank you again @Jayne01 @Jessica @ElizabethK and @JudiBlueEyes I appreciate all the comments of support and even the rough handling from Liz. Sorry if my message is a bit mumbled it is difficult to be heard when facing a corner. And Judi you are not the only one to point out that I have helped others and that I am not who I was, but it is hard to believe those things when your head is full of bad memories and fears of those reoccurring again. Those are the ghosts I fight. They may be insubstantial but they are there. Ironically it is just the fact that I have fallen in love with Michelle and she with me that has triggered this battle within myself.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Laurie,

Those memories and fears you have are not insubstantial, they are very real and affecting you. They are not something to be dismissed, rather, they should be treated with respect and acknowledged for what they are....memories of a past life. People can change and you have demonstrated that time and time again. You are no longer that person you describe. I have never met the old you and from your descriptions, that sounds like a total stranger to me. It does not describe who you are now.

I can understand why these memories and fears have been triggered, causing you this internal battle. You have found something very special with Michelle, something you do not want to lose. You are worried your old self may surface to repeat past mistakes. I don't think that is possible. I believe your old self is not hiding beneath the surface but gone completely. Go easy on yourself and trust that you have changed for the better.

You can come out of the corner now. [emoji16]

Hugs,
Jayne

[Jayne01]

On a different note....

                    BEWARE! No One is Safe !


                 

Wooohoooo!!!! Laurie is doing a road trip down under!! [emoji16][emoji16][emoji16][emoji16]

[Jessica]

On a different note....

                    BEWARE! No One is Safe !


                 

@ElizabethK your admonishment to Laurie may find yourself put on the top of a fridge when she shows up at your door!

[KathyLauren]

I might have to start dusting. 

[LizK]

madly scrambling to remove everything off the top of the fridge...especially after making her go stand in the corner yesterday

[Michelle_P]

madly scrambling to remove everything off the top of the fridge...especially after making her go stand in the corner yesterday

I'm checking ship schedules between the US West Coast and Sydney, as well as rail and other transport between Sydney and Adelaide, at the suggestion of the badgers.

At some point we may need to trans-ship Laurie to the Southern Hemisphere. 


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[davina61]

Is that a round the world trip , do I have to vac and dust, clean top of fridge and make a banquet ? BTW still spaces at the UK meetup

[Jayne01]

<Jayne is busily making preparations>

[sarah1972]

You too??? Sneaking in a new avatar? Looks great Laurie! Love your new avatar.

Also: Congrats on your brand new Passport!

Hugs,

Sarah

[Northern Star Girl]

You too??? Sneaking in a new avatar? Looks great Laurie! Love your new avatar.

Also: Congrats on your brand new Passport!

Hugs,

Sarah

@sarah1972
Dear Sarah: 
It appears that a lot of the members are updating their Avatar photos lately.   Hmmm, perhaps it is your turn sometime in the near future.   Please, only post a new Avatar if you feel comfortable doing it, no pressure.
I did see a new picture of you on one of your recent posts....
... you are looking good for sure!!!    Hot Mama #2   

Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

[Laurie]

Is that a round the world trip , do I have to vac and dust, clean top of fridge and make a banquet ? BTW still spaces at the UK meetup

  I have no plans for travel Davina. You know that. You will need to talk to Michelle.

<Jayne is busily making preparations>

  Looks like someone is getting the message.

You too??? Sneaking in a new avatar? Looks great Laurie! Love your new avatar.

Also: Congrats on your brand new Passport!

Hugs,

Sarah

  What? This ol' thing?  I already have another hair style sitting on my dresser that Michelle likes better. I'm not sure though. And look who's talking you have changed your avatar more than I, Hot Mama Sarah.

Hugs to all,
  Laurie

Oh I almost forgot. I received my card passport today completing my order. They still need to mail my birth certificate back.
  Another thing I got done today... I enrolled at Kaiser Permanente HMO so I can get into their Transgender program to avail myself of their services that I cannot get at the VA. My coverage should start August 1st.

  LJW

[LizK]

Nicely done LJW

Glad you made the decision to follow through...as someone famous once said..."the futures so bright   I   she needs shades"

Take care


Liz

[Jessica]

@Laurie @Michelle_P @Cindy @ElizabethK

I'm checking ship schedules between the US West Coast and Sydney, as well as rail and other transport between Sydney and Adelaide, at the suggestion of the badgers.

At some point we may need to trans-ship Laurie to the Southern Hemisphere. 


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The Honey Badgers want to visit the home of the Australian Apis mellifera.  They tell me that they make the best badger food down under.

[Laurie]

Hi Folks,

   I will be covered by Kaiser Permanente on August first.
 
  I got a call from one of their customer service people to update my information. (I used to have Kaiser about 10 years ago through work) During the call I confirmed I was interested in their transgender services, He asked what kind of services I was interested in and assumed immediately that I wanted GCS. OMG! I don't even know what it is I want yet! I did tell him that at a minimum I would like to see at least 2/3 of the dangly parts gone and a trachea shave as I have never like either. So off he goes with an orchiectomy! I had to stop him again and tell him I would probably incorporate that with GCS should I choose to do it and the trachea  shave with VFS should I choose that also.. Anyway he has put in a referral to their gender program people and I'll be getting a call from them.
  They are already getting things rolling and I am not even covered by them yet. Suddenly, I have this feeling of a large steam roller being aimed right at me.

Hugs,
  Laurie

[Faith]

awesome for you Laurie, there's no slowing down now!

I wish there was something like Kaiser in Florida, I go nuthin'

[Laurie]

awesome for you Laurie, there's no slowing down now!

I wish there was something like Kaiser in Florida, I go nuthin'

  Thank you Faith.  Florida doesn't have any HMOs that offer a transgender program?  I hope you can find insurance when you do decide you need it.

Hugs,
  Laurie

[Jessica]

Hi Folks,

   I will be covered by Kaiser Permanente on August first.
 
  I got a call from one of their customer service people to update my information. (I used to have Kaiser about 10 years ago through work) During the call I confirmed I was interested in their transgender services, He asked what kind of services I was interested in and assumed immediately that I wanted GCS. OMG! I don't even know what it is I want yet! I did tell him that at a minimum I would like to see at least 2/3 of the dangly parts gone and a trachea shave as I have never like either. So off he goes with an orchiectomy! I had to stop him again and tell him I would probably incorporate that with GCS should I choose to do it and the trachea  shave with VFS should I choose that also.. Anyway he has put in a referral to their gender program people and I'll be getting a call from them.
  They are already getting things rolling and I am not even covered by them yet. Suddenly, I have this feeling of a large steam roller being aimed right at me.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Gulp! Plans!!!

[Tessa James]

Hi Folks,.......
Anyway he has put in a referral to their gender program people and I'll be getting a call from them.
  They are already getting things rolling and I am not even covered by them yet. Suddenly, I have this feeling of a large steam roller being aimed right at me.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Not to worry girl.  That steam roller is all steam and you assert your individual care plan well after intake and interviews.  I know the team over there, after nearly 6 years, and they include people that share our lived experience.  I do encourage you to know about the small print as each plan is written for an individual or the company employees being covered.  You may wish to ask specifically about that shave and haircut and ensure nothing you may want is excluded.  See ya at the gender pathways clinic....

[Laurie]

Gulp! Plans!!!

   ((((Slap))))

You know better!  Especially at this point.

[Laurie]

Not to worry girl.  That steam roller is all steam and you assert your individual care plan well after intake and interviews.  I know the team over there, after nearly 6 years, and they include people that share our lived experience.  I do encourage you to know about the small print as each plan is written for an individual or the company employees being covered.  You may wish to ask specifically about that shave and haircut and ensure nothing you may want is excluded.  See ya at the gender pathways clinic....

  Are you going to come hold my hand?

btw You have mentioned knowing about Kaiser before, how? it may become relevant.....

Hugs,
  Laurie