Last night I told my ex. She is very supportive. She and I will tell our son after teaching him about the science and social issues of transgender issues. That positive reaction was a relief for me. My stress level has gone down. The thing is, I know that my parents will be quite angry and will not accept me. While I'm dreading telling them that I'm trans, I'm also looking forward to it because I am quite sure that they will disown me. I know that sounds strange. Let me explain. My father, who was never around much, is creepy to be around and is dishonest, manipulative, controlling, and has conducted some very shady, predatory business ventures. My mother, she raised me, was neglectful, emotionally abusive, and she and her side of the family, well, I'm surprised that neither mom nor any of her relatives have joined a hate group. That isn't hyperbole. While I do - because they're who I bonded with in childhood- love my parents, while I'm afraid of their rejection and how stressful and painful that will be...I'm also looking forward to them wanting nothing to do with me. It's been so stressful and painful dealing with them and now I'll probably be done with them. The only reason I have stayed in contact with them is out of pity. I think they've been using that though. They're both manipulative. So, on the one hand, I'm afraid, on the other hand, I'm looking forward to a new sort of freedom. Has any one else had to deal with anything like this?
