Heyo.
I'm at the very start of my transition. I've been taking T for 2 weeks now, and i've barely noticed any change in my body. I'm at that point where i'm realizing i'm going to need to come out to my extended family in the next 3 months. I've lived most of my life as a lesbian, and that was a hard won fight. They still aren't very accepting of me loving and dating women. I'm 27 and i've never brought a girlfriend to a family function or even really mentioned the people that i've dated.
Now i'm trying to figure out how to tell them that i'm a man. I've never been feminine, but they saw it as being a tom boy and so they accepted it as long as I didn't cross any lines. Well, this is me officially hop, skipping, and jumping right on across that line.
My family is large. There are 90 of them, and about 40 I see about 4 times a year. I don't want to miss out on my little cousins growing up and I have appreciated the love that they've shown me, but I can't see them being okay wit this. I don't think that I have it in me to be some shameful and sinful piece of gossip. I don't know how I can do that to my mother and my grandma. My grandma, especially. She's never going to accept or understand this. She already talks a bunch of crap about my short hair and button up shirts. She's going to lose her everlasting mind when I grow a beard. There's no avoiding these people. I see them ALL OF THE TIME.
I've waited this long to transition because of them, and I know I can't wait any longer, but i'm just scared, ya'll. I'm just scared. Thanks for listening.
