Quote from: Chelsea on October 31, 2018, 09:48:35 PM
Hi all. I was just checking in. I have had a very rough week. A couple of weeks ago I went for my blood test and i am happy to report all was perfect. I told my doctor that I am having issue going out in public because of my nerves and wondered if she could give me something to help. She wrote me a prescription for a antidepressant. The first two days of taking them was no big deal. Two days ago i woke up in a panic like I had been running or something but it quickly went away. I have never in my life had anxiety. Later that day I would be in the back of a ambulance on the way to the hospital. My blood pressure was 148/128, hands and feet were tingly, could not breath good, I honestly thought I was going to die. Went to the hospital to run up a $1200 bill that i dont have to find out that I have nothing physically wrong with me. The doctor said I had a reaction to the medicine. That will be the first and last SSRI that I will ever try. I will just be nervous and go with it.
On a positive note I did get my ears pierced yesterday! I had to do something to make myself feel better. I know, almost 8 months on hormones and just now doing this. lol Ive not felt good lately so I have no picture.
I am having a hard time in public. Actually a lot worse than i let on. I have been out at least a dozen times and its just as hard each time. Is like I feel ashamed of what I am doing even though I know I am doing nothing wrong. I have a appointment tomorrow with my therapist for the first time in months so hopefully she can help me.
Hugs,
Chelsea
@Chelsea My dear Chelsea:I just wish I could come through your computer screen and give you a big and tight hug... hugs are good!!!
Good news about your blood test being perfect... but bad news about your bad reaction to your prescription antidepressant. A health problem and unfortunately a financial obligation you did not plan for, but you do have to take care of your body, you are only issued ONE in your lifetime.
Awee, getting your ears pierced, very affirming and certainly some pampering you needed considering what you have just gone through..... for pampering and recovering from difficult issues I like to go to a hair and nail salon... and perhaps a spa to get my mind off of my problems...
Wow, at 8 months of HRT you should be seeing and feeling lots of good changes... boobs, face, reduced body hair growth, softer skin, etc. .... hang on, because there are a lot more exciting things coming for you as you continue on with your HRT.
You and I have talked previously about safety in numbers when going out and about as Chelsea.... your friends will support your efforts and fend off any untoward remarks, staring, etc.... you should not be going out alone for the short term... also hopefully your therapist can help you to mentally cope with your difficulties, but again, for now, go out and about with friends.
You didn't mention anything about your finances, your business and/or job, your mom, nor did you say anything about starting up voice lessons again... your followers are curious and we want to follow...
....or as we have done before please PM me, I am always happy to see your messages in my inbox.
Please keep us updated as you feel comfortable doing.
Hugs and hugs, and more hugs,
Danielle [emoji173]