Quote from: Chelsea on June 04, 2018, 07:59:42 AM
Thank you everyone.
This is hard for me because even though I am even a little angry, I still must talk to her everyday. If mom don't feel like cooking or anything she will just go to bed at night with nothing. I had to take her to the emergency room last year because she was severely dehydrated. Last night I had my sister call and check on her.
What started this was I ask her yesterday if she was going to be alright when my body starts changing? I wasn't trying to start a argument but, my body is changing and I cant hide this much longer. I built my machine shop on my mothers property in 2013 because the house that my dad built and the property will go to me one day anyway and at the time I lived there.
I just wanted to let you girls know that even though I get upset sometimes and post well.......disturbing post about my adventures, They are real. If I only post the good things in this transition then its not going to benefit anyone that might be following me. Just know that I am a very determined person and would never harm myself. I, like a lot of people say things I really don't mean when I'm really upset. I will continue going forward in this transition and will not stop. I don't feel like the old me anymore so its hard to keep "playing" like the old me.
SO after all this I still am going to the shop today and crank up the music and put some parts out to sell. If mom comes out and talks or not I'm fine either way. I will still be nice and bring her dinner just like always, even if she don't say a word to me. I simply refuse to be unhappy.
Big hugs to all of you. [emoji171]
Chelsea
Dear Chelsea: Yes indeed, you go girl..... even though life will throw you a few curves, it is so important to stay on task and keep your internal fire going to reach for your transition goals.
As you have been doing, continue to be good to your mother. I find it very heartening to hear that you still take loving care of her even though she has not accepted "Chelsea" ... she will always see you and love you as one of her children.
Please, Chelsea, always feel free to post about your frustrations, disappointments, failures...
and about your successes and good times.
This is a great place to vent to share your feelings and your thoughts with like-minded members here on the Forums...
you have certainly found friends here that care and that are supporting to you.
I have often told my readers that writing about stuff that we are dealing with in life can absolutely be very good personal therapy... it can help us to work out these issues in our own mind and in our life.
Personally, I also keep a pen and paper journal, complete with doodling, to keep track of my life goings on... Even as a school boy I kept a journal and there are times in my life that I will sit down and read what I have gone through. All of that makes it easier to see the path I took to conquer my life problems. There may be some more personal things that you are tossing around in your mind that you might not want to post on the Forums, then your personal, at home, journal is a good place to write down stuff like that.
As always, I am continually looking forward to clicking on your thread to read about your progress...
... please keep your updates coming, good or bad, but try to keep them coming.
Hugs and well wishes to you,
Danielle