Quote from: Chelsea on June 26, 2018, 07:24:45 AM
Judi you hit the nail on the head. That sounds just like me. All these crazy thoughts on top of all the emotions making them worse and confusing. Am I too tall? maybe. Are my hands and feet a little too long? nah they are fine, or are they? Do I need FFS? maybe I don't know. Where are you gonna get the money? No idea. This is just a tiny bit of the stuff that runs through my head everyday clouding my work day. I also have the fear of not knowing what I will turn out like. The selfies I post are not the whole picture. I know all of this is normal now but wow it sucks.
As far as MPB I am going to try my very best to just look where I'm walking and focus on what I'm doing at the moment. I still think I need horse blinders. lol Quitter?? You all know me better than that by now. I will cry and probably have a few "teenage girl" fits but I will get through this. Thank you for posting.
Hugs,
Chelsea
Dear Chelsea, 26 June 2018
I haven't posted on your thread for awhile; thought it a good time to reverse that.
You started HRT 20 days before I did. I did mine w/o anti-androgens (spiro, etc.). The only thing I can tell you or anyone else is what I have experienced. My HRT started 27 March 2018; I have yet to experience a mood swing since being on HRT (tomorrow will be 3 months). There are two major differences between you and me; age and HRT. I'm 32 years older than you and most likely I am using different drugs/meds than you are.
Before I started transition, after much research, I decided I would not use anti-androgens under any circumstance, especially spiro, a potassium sparing diuretic that is being used as an anti-androgen. It's an oral medication so you have peaks and valleys in your blood levels.
Spiro is only one part of HRT so you are probably using something to provide estrogen or some form of it. If it's an oral med the same situation exists, peaks and valleys in your blood levels.
Seventeen days after I started HRT I had my nuts chopped off via bilateral inguinal orchiectomy thereby eliminating testosterone (last check it was 10). That 10 is produced by the adrenal gland, which is present in both men and women.
I am using Estradiol transdermal patches for my female hormone. The patches provide a near constant level of the hormone directly into the blood stream bypassing the liver, which metabolizes oral meds.
If anyone self adjusts their dosages, they could be causing undesirable mood swings. If I was having mood swings, I'd be visiting my endocrinologist and ask them to check my hormone levels.
I know I'm a
nag, but I do know a hell of a lot more about drugs/meds and their dangers than most people. If a person tries to play both ends from the middle, they may succeed for a while; as with all things in life, everything comes with a price tag attached, we just won't know what the price is until the bill comes due. Smoking is a good example; two of my best friends died last year from lung cancer. They both thought it would never happen to them.
Just so you know,
I am NOT accusing you of doing anything. If I didn't care about you, I wouldn't say
>-bleeped-< and I wouldn't spend time posting on your thread, I'd just ignore you. Notice, I'm not ignoring you.
Sorry if you or anyone thinks my verbiage is a bit rough around the edges; it's that way on and for a purpose.
Best Always, All My Love Always,
Christine