Transitioning slowly mtf

[Jenniferangelina]

I am transitioning slowly, like molasses slow. I am extremely overweight and going to college. I want to transition but I'm going to give myself two years to lose 100 pounds (from 235 to 135 and my height is 5 foot 5 inches) and then start to transition. I have a gsa in my college so I'm going to come out as trans there. And if I want to feel pretty at home I have a lovely dress my bisexual awesome sauce sister bought me, that I can wear in the privacy of my bedroom. I hope this sire can give me new ideas and help me on my journey. PS coming out as transgender is a lot more scary than coming out as gay, which if I turn into a woman makes me straight?

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I am transitioning slowly, like molasses slow. I am extremely overweight and going to college. I want to transition but I'm going to give myself two years to lose 100 pounds (from 235 to 135 and my height is 5 foot 5 inches) and then start to transition. I have a gsa in my college so I'm going to come out as trans there. And if I want to feel pretty at home I have a lovely dress my bisexual awesome sauce sister bought me, that I can wear in the privacy of my bedroom. I hope this sire can give me new ideas and help me on my journey. PS coming out as transgender is a lot more scary than coming out as gay, which if I turn into a woman makes me straight?

It's not the physical transition that makes you gay or straight, it's your mind and your mental transition that dictate what your sexuality is.

If you feel you are a woman and you like men, then you are straight. If you have boobs or not already, that doesn't matter.

Some people's sexuality shifts when they become more comfortable in their prefered gender.

[Jessica]

Hi Jenniferangelina 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica, a transgender woman.  It is a scary prospect to consider changes to your life and to your self.  I'm glad your sister is supporting of you.  Don't confuse gender with sexuality, they aren't the same thing.
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[KathyLauren]

<Jessica beat me to it>

Welcome, Jennifer!

You don't "turn into" a woman.  If you are transitioning, it is because you already are one, you just need your body and social role to catch up.

[JulieAllana]

<Jessica beat me to it>

You don't "turn into" a woman.  If you are transitioning, it is because you already are one, you just need your body and social role to catch up.

Hi Kathy,
   Let me start of by saying that yours were some of the first posts that I read when I joined here and you consistently offer amazingly well thought out replies that are insightful and helpful on so many levels.  You are the first that I added to my buddy list. 

The idea that I have always been a woman is something that I am still coming to terms with.  Not because I don't acknowledge that, but because I am still so masculine in so many ways, including some of how I think, which is a direct contradiction to the statement, "I am a woman and always have been."  After so many years shrouded in male socialization cues and being stuck in this male body,  it is really hard to peel the layers of the onion because they root so deeply.  Those things were part of my shield that protected me from harm and ridicule and I imagine for that reason, it is hard and scary to let them go.  Even now when not in girl mode I hold that shield up and while I don't think about it when I am holding it up, as I am typing this that shield just seems so heavy and oppressive.  I need to find a way to let it go.

         Julie

[KathyLauren]

Hi Kathy,
   Let me start of by saying that yours were some of the first posts that I read when I joined here and you consistently offer amazingly well thought out replies that are insightful and helpful on so many levels.  You are the first that I added to my buddy list. 

Aw, thanks, hun!

    The idea that I have always been a woman is something that I am still coming to terms with.  Not because I don't acknowledge that, but because I am still so masculine in so many ways, including some of how I think, which is a direct contradiction to the statement, "I am a woman and always have been."

Yes, totally.  I feel the same way.  I am loaded up with male habits that all males take for granted, and I lack female habits that all women take for granted.  It's easy to get overwhelmed by them, and that is a big part of what makes transition so scary.  (To relate back to the OP. )

But the only way that this path makes any sense is if I have always been a woman.  That's the only way to explain all those dysphoric things that happened when I was younger, and why transition feels so right now that I am on my way.