My name is Claire, I am 19 years old and I beginning HRT this month (MTF).
When did you understand you were Transgender?
At a very young age. When I was little I always put blankets and towels on my head to pretend I had long hair. In every single video game I played I only played the female characters because I felt like they related to me more. I always wanted to wear female shoes and have the female body. I was always fascinated by make up and other feminine things. When I was growing up. I only hung around women. I tried to understand a women's mind more than a mans. I studied it so much growing up that in actually became second nature for me. I came out this month to my brother and mother because they are open minded and I love them.
What gave me the encourage to tell my parents/brother?
I guess I am the type of person who takes risks in my life. I know my dad is homophobic and hates gay/transgender people. One thing about him though, he loves his children and only his children. I know my dad will find out one day and honestly whether he disgusted or not. I will love him and support financially best I could. I told my mother and brother out of courage. I have a motto that came from the movie "We Bought A Zoo". It is called "20 seconds of courage". If I can use those 20 seconds to be honest then I can conquer most of my goals. Thats how i told them.
Did I consider the repercussion from doing all this?
I know that we live in a very judgmental world full of hate and full of love. The thing is I grew up with a huge back bone. I believe sticks & stones may break my bones words will never hurt me. You can call me ugly, gay, disgusting or whatever you want. At the end of the day I am in college almost done with my degree and doing what I want to do with my body. Criticism did hurt me back in the day. Now I am stronger and happier.
Did you have to contemplate doing HRT?
Of Course NOT! Once I got the courage to come out to my parents. I found a therapist and clinic just last week guys. I did all of this a weeks span. My boyfriend of 9 months helped through this journey as well and is still supporting me. I will start HRT This month
Last but not least guys, I want to post pictures of me now so I can always remember my beginning
I know you can back up photos and back up things on a flash drive or pc. I just want a place where I could always remember the journey when I look back at these photo's. Thank you guys for reading, this website has helped me understand myself better. I hope all you teenagers who are trying to transition soon, understand yourselves and try to start those hormones as soon as possible. My mother told me that I could not do it, but I explain to her that I am going to do it no matter what.
