When I was going through puberty, I often dressed in my mother's intimates while no one was home, although I think my parents knew since I doubt I put everything back perfectly and I am sure I stretched out my mother's hose. I repressed my TG feelings for a long time. After I got married, I would buy pantyhose to dress in while I was away at conferences, but that made me feel ashamed and depressed, which I am sure was from my childhood experiences. I always did it though. Couldn't help myself. Now, I came out to my wife, but she will leave me if I CD, so I am left with the dilemma of dressing in secret or not. Anyway, definitely helps with my dysphoria, although it's never enough. If I wasn't going to upset my entire life and lose all of my relationships, I would transition to a woman in a second. The only thing that would eliminate my dysphoria totally would be to have breasts and a vagina.