I switched my medical insurance to Kaiser Permente because I heard they had the best Trans Care and when I was on another I was having trouble finding a Endo to prescribe HRT. So I made the decision to wait about 2 months for open enrollment so i could switch to Kaiser and start treatment.
It has been overall a been great decision, at the start of everything i was nervous about talking to anyone including health professionals about transitioning which i think most people are.
So after seeing the Therapist for the first time she recommended me immediately to schedule with the endo so i could start HRT. I had been trying for over a year with the other insurance and there therapist so this was happening really fast which excited me also terrified at the same time.
Within a week i had a appointment with the endo at one of the larger Kaiser Hospitals in the Los Angeles area.
I dressed for the appointment androgynous womens jeans just a plain T shirt , I'm 51 so i was not passing or trying to pass at this time. So get to the appointment and walking down the hall looking for the right room. I spot the room # and open the door to walk in and there is female Kaiser employee on here way out, She stops in the doorway looks me up from head to toe then back toe to head and just really loudly makes the PFFFT so everyone in the waiting room hears. Shakes her head and struts out.
This is my first experience like this i was fairly embarrassed for a little while sitting there until everyone went back to what they were doing.
I get called to see the endo went in had the appointment and she prescribes the Estradiol and asked me i wanted to go downstairs and get my prescription right now. I was surprised i was used to having to get it called into a local pharmacy and waiting for it to filled, figured it would be a few days at least. So was really surprised since i was new to Kaiser that you can walk out the office right to the pharmacy and get the prescription.
I said yes i will get it here and now excited and a bit apprehensive since i have bee trying for so long and its happening really fast.
I go down the pharmacy downstairs , this is one of the bigger Kaiser location so there was probably 30 people in pharmacy to pick up prescriptions. This pharmacy was tiny thou, crammed in there like sardines and NO privacy whatsoever. When i was called to come up and collect the prescription it was a young male in his mid twenties , at first he was all business here it is pay this to each customer and he is the same with me at the start of the transaction, then he looks at what the prescription is , he pauses his lips scrunch up and every word from is mouth at this point everyone can hear.
Who are you picking this up for ? me
You do know this is estrogen right? yes
Do you need the pharmacist to go over how to take it? no
Now I'm sweating its the first time getting HRT, already had the experience upstairs with the women, now this
I walked out of there and back to my car so fast already questioning my decision if it is going to be like this the whole way if this is what its like the first day.
At the start of traveling home my emotions were embarrassment, fear, then some anger
Then i started laughing the more i thought about it, if I'm going to let a couple people i don't know and will never see again dictate how i live my own life then I'm really destined to be sad and miserable for the rest of life. So decided then to just smile and move on with my life and not let these small and yes they may feel embarrassing at the time but those people didn't think about me the moment i was out of their sight. Why would i think about them any longer than they thought about me and let them control me.
When i arrived home went straight in and took my first dose and its been almost a year now
Those were the only experiences like that i have had to date and almost let those stop me yet again.
I'm glad i did not, transition is hard enough without letting small blips take more control of you then they should
I have been getting my RX now online from the Kaiser mail-order most of the time but i have been into the local one on a few occasions now to pick up the RX and there has never been an issue since