I appreciate all your time to write down what you feel. I'd not exactly say I'm a gender non-binary person but I've a personality of a female who has few masculine features. There is a difference between a guy who has feminine features and a female who has masculine features and I feel like I'm the latter. I don't force myself to be a certain way except in public, I present as male. It's so ridiculous because I look androgynous in male attire but my voice makes it obvious that I'm male. I've 95 % feminine face and don't need makeup to pass as a female. However, I'm also quite muscular and need a decent wig to cover my shoulders to pass decently. I've lost 15 pounds without hitting the gym, yet I didn't lose muscle at all. I guess HRT would just melt those bulky muscles. My appearance and age would make it easier for me to transition but I always question myself. I just couldn't answer it all these years. I'm also a student and counselling is not exactly affordable either.