What are you thinking 11.0

[Dena]

I am thinking about changing my avatar to a real picture of myself, as it must be odd for others to be talking to a stuffed undead bunny lol. Parting ways with him will be sad though  I don't know if I can do it!

I have an older image of me so at least people have some idea of what this blabber mouth looks like. We don't require the avatar be of you as not everybody is comfortable posting their image. Some people are stealth and others aren't ready to come out. Post you image only if your comfortable with the idea.

[TicTac]

I have an older image of me so at least people have some idea of what this blabber mouth looks like. We don't require the avatar be of you as not everybody is comfortable posting their image. Some people are stealth and others aren't ready to come out. Post you image only if your comfortable with the idea.

My first ever post on Susan's was a picture of myself, so I do not mind it. However, it would probably be a pain to get a picture of myself in an avatar size. Besides, it would have to be a good one and i'm picky lol. I don't know.

Also, you are not a blabber mouth  I am not sure what that means actually lol.

[4A-GZE]

I am not sure what your job is but possibly placing a few signs that say "Have you logged this job?" around your work station might help. I also have issues remember some things at time so I am a note person. If it's important, I write a note and place it were I will run into it during my normal activities. One of my favorite place is to leave notes by my driving glasses. As I need to have them to drive, I will see my reminder when I leave for work or get ready to go home.

That's a pretty good idea! I'll have to do something like that.

[Allison S]

My mom asking me "where do you intend on taking this?" talking about changes to my appearance with hrt and growing my hair out...

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[Northern Star Girl]

My mom asking me "where do you intend on taking this?" talking about changes to my appearance with hrt and growing my hair out...

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Well, @Allison S .... You didn't say how you answered your Mom and what she said after that, I hope that it went well.  It is very obvious from your pictures that your initial pre-HRT transitioning is moving quickly toward "female"..

Hmm, that is the turning point for all of us that made the decision to transition and then coming out to parents, family and close friends. 
For some, it seems to turn out OK and parents, family and friends accept and still communicate, and for others, such as myself and some others, all of those mentioned disowned me and I have not had any kind of significant conversation with them for over 4 years.

I am wishing you well with how all of this potentially delicate matter turns out for you and your Mom and others that are close to you.
Hugs,
Danielle

[Allison S]

Well, @Allison S .... You didn't say how you answered your Mom and what she said after that, I hope that it went well.  It is very obvious from your pictures that your initial pre-HRT transitioning is moving quickly toward "female"..

Hmm, that is the turning point for all of us that made the decision to transition and then coming out to parents, family and close friends. 
For some, it seems to turn out OK and parents, family and friends accept and still communicate, and for others, such as myself and some others, all of those mentioned disowned me and I have not had any kind of significant conversation with them for over 4 years.

I am wishing you well with how all of this potentially delicate matter turns out for you and your Mom and others that are close to you.
Hugs,
Danielle

Well it was a bit of a longer conversation that I just wanted to end. She said she wishes the issues in my head would work themselves out. Not sure how it got to that point, I think I had mentioned we don't know what the future will bring. She then said "we don't know what the next hour will bring" and what I typed up about my head needing to get better.

Then she asked bluntly "where are you going with this" and I just said "I don't know". I mean I don't know what hrt will bring that's a fact... She even mentioned details like my legs being smooth and soft. She asked if I got laser on them and I told her no (not yet at least). She kept insisting and I said "why do you fix your hair and do your eyebrows?". I know, what a cop out of a way to respond... But I really don't want to go into it and have any chance of her having a breakdown. She already suspects and it's not like hrt is changing me overnight at this point...

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[amberwaves]

Well it was a bit of a longer conversation that I just wanted to end. She said she wishes the issues in my head would work themselves out. Not sure how it got to that point, I think I had mentioned we don't know what the future will bring. She then said "we don't know what the next hour will bring" and what I typed up about my head needing to get better.

Then she asked bluntly "where are you going with this" and I just said "I don't know". I mean I don't know what hrt will bring that's a fact... She even mentioned details like my legs being smooth and soft. She asked if I got laser on them and I told her no (not yet at least). She kept insisting and I said "why do you fix your hair and do your eyebrows?". I know, what a cop out of a way to respond... But I really don't want to go into it and have any chance of her having a breakdown. She already suspects and it's not like hrt is changing me overnight at this point...

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Sounds like she is pretty sure she knows where you are going with all this and is trying to get you to say it.  She is way too aware of the small details to not know.

[justarandomname2]

Well it was a bit of a longer conversation that I just wanted to end. She said she wishes the issues in my head would work themselves out. Not sure how it got to that point, I think I had mentioned we don't know what the future will bring. She then said "we don't know what the next hour will bring" and what I typed up about my head needing to get better.

Then she asked bluntly "where are you going with this" and I just said "I don't know". I mean I don't know what hrt will bring that's a fact... She even mentioned details like my legs being smooth and soft. She asked if I got laser on them and I told her no (not yet at least). She kept insisting and I said "why do you fix your hair and do your eyebrows?". I know, what a cop out of a way to respond... But I really don't want to go into it and have any chance of her having a breakdown. She already suspects and it's not like hrt is changing me overnight at this point...

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Your mom probably has a bit of an idea but based on how she is actually talking to you about it and questioning it, she sounds like she might become supportive, even though she may not be at the moment.

I really hope things work out and keep us posted.

[4A-GZE]

I'm just wondering why I have such trouble meeting new people. I really only have two friends right now, and I think that one of them might not like me anymore. The other is always busy. I use some dating sites just to meet new people, but I haven't had much luck. (Although, that IS how I met both of the aforementioned friends, so I guess that's something.)
I dunno. I've just been feeling down lately.

[Allison S]

Sounds like she is pretty sure she knows where you are going with all this and is trying to get you to say it.  She is way too aware of the small details to not know.

Your mom probably has a bit of an idea but based on how she is actually talking to you about it and questioning it, she sounds like she might become supportive, even though she may not be at the moment.

I really hope things work out and keep us posted.

Yea you're both right because the other day she said I'm a boy and nothing about me is a girl...not my face, body or height.

Well my sister today commented about my lower body being bigger than my upper body and she keeps pointing out that my cheeks are more prominent, face is rounder. I was just laughing because they're good things..

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[amberwaves]

Yea you're both right because the other day she said I'm a boy and nothing about me is a girl...not my face, body or height.

Sounds like someone is in denial

[TicTac]

I had a very strange experience at my speech therapy appointment. Honestly, I am a bit freaked out about it and google is not helping me find answers.

So, everything was going really well at the appointment, as apparently I was blowing through all the material they had planned to teach me, however during the entire session I felt very, very weird. This may sound bizarre, but I felt like at any moment I could lose my consciousness I guess? Like, I felt like I was going to black out or something, but I can't really explain the feeling.

This is were it gets a bit odd. They told me I needed to use my hands more when I speak, and before I even did anything they started to praise me telling me that I did a good job moving my hands....what the heck? I felt so confused and freaked out. I have no, and I mean NO memory of moving my hands...at all. It was like time was missing and for a few minutes I was not there. Honestly, I do not know how else to explain it. I did not know what to do so I kinda just played along and pretended to know what they were talking about.

I keep thinking about it, and the only thing I can think of is that I was just tired maybe, but I did not feel tired at all so...I don't know. This has never happened to me before in my life. Maybe it has something to do with stress? I was not expecting someone else to be there at the appointment, which triggered my anxiety and made me feel nervous. I don't know but I wish I did.

[Allison S]

I had a very strange experience at my speech therapy appointment. Honestly, I am a bit freaked out about it and google is not helping me find answers.

So, everything was going really well at the appointment, as apparently I was blowing through all the material they had planned to teach me, however during the entire session I felt very, very weird. This may sound bizarre, but I felt like at any moment I could lose my consciousness I guess? Like, I felt like I was going to black out or something, but I can't really explain the feeling.

This is were it gets a bit odd. They told me I needed to use my hands more when I speak, and before I even did anything they started to praise me telling me that I did a good job moving my hands....what the heck? I felt so confused and freaked out. I have no, and I mean NO memory of moving my hands...at all. It was like time was missing and for a few minutes I was not there. Honestly, I do not know how else to explain it. I did not know what to do so I kinda just played along and pretended to know what they were talking about.

I keep thinking about it, and the only thing I can think of is that I was just tired maybe, but I did not feel tired at all so...I don't know. This has never happened to me before in my life. Maybe it has something to do with stress? I was not expecting someone else to be there at the appointment, which triggered my anxiety and made me feel nervous. I don't know but I wish I did.

Oh wow that must've been scary to have someone else there that you weren't expecting. It definitely sounds like it was stressful for you. I tend to speak up and so I'm curious if you happened to mention that? Just simply "I wasn't expecting there to be someone else here". Sometimes it's hard to at first but I gaurantee being upfront is something anyone can gradually work on. This is your session, time, and money! But congrats on making it through!

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[Dena]

I had a very strange experience at my speech therapy appointment. Honestly, I am a bit freaked out about it and google is not helping me find answers.

This is something you should discuss with your therapist. I can think of several things it might be from simply stress to some pretty far out things I am not going to mention at this time. It really should be addressed as at the moment you don't know the extent of it and it could become a problem latter on.

[TicTac]

Oh wow that must've been scary to have someone else there that you weren't expecting. It definitely sounds like it was stressful for you. I tend to speak up and so I'm curious if you happened to mention that? Just simply "I wasn't expecting there to be someone else here". Sometimes it's hard to at first but I gaurantee being upfront is something anyone can gradually work on. This is your session, time, and money! But congrats on making it through!

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I never speak up because I do not want to come off as mean or something. Also, she was really nice and I did not want to hurt her feelings. I have attempted to be upfront before and I literally cannot do it lol. Ugh I am such a weakling 

Thanks! I was super nervous though and all I wanted was to disappear...and that almost happened lol. 

[TicTac]

This is something you should discuss with your therapist. I can think of several things it might be from simply stress to some pretty far out things I am not going to mention at this time. It really should be addressed as at the moment you don't know the extent of it and it could become a problem latter on.

Yeah, my therapist hosts a transgender group thing that I just started going to (was a nervous mess there too lol) and I thought about bringing it up to her after its over. I also forgot to mention that I had a strange headache but it did not hurt rather it felt more like pressure and the feeling of a lightheadedness. Very odd.

This strange pressure feeling appeared a week ago when I fell into a deep depression that I am still trying to get out of. I don't know, I guess I just feel really stressed out and filled with a ton of anxiety. I am such a complete mess at the moment.  I hope there is not something wrong with my brain or anything  Heck, even now my head feels super odd and it only happens when I get depressed/stressed out.

Anyways, thank you for the reply!

[Allison S]

I just can't understand how my mom has let herself go. It saddens me she says she doesn't drink water and then there's other things I won't mention. I'm not saying this because she's my mom but she's a beautiful woman... and it's not like she doesn't have the time and resources. I stayed with her a few days and I helped her a bit which she was receptive of. I just don't understand her dependency tendencies. It's really not cute!!

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[V M]

No matter where you go in life there will always be a dumb cow in the road

[Claire]

Meeting some friends tonight and this will be how it goes. It's pretty much like this now only just me in my head.


Claire-

[Allison S]

I was at dinner with friends last night. There was a couple, man and woman, sitting next to us. I noticed he kept staring at me the entire time.. I felt awful for his wife sitting right there with him... I can't believe someone would do that [emoji26]
My friend said he didn't look over at the guy but could feel the staring. Ugh idk what to think anymore

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