Hi Josie
Thanks for your input. We have both had therapy but have stopped as it didn't really give us any answers. We tried two therapists, one agreed that he was trans, based on just 2 sessions (in which his relationship with me was barely mentioned) and approved him for hormones, the other one insisted he isn't trans - she insists he's gender fluid, which of course is on the trans spectrum - and that transitioning was the wrong thing to do. I have been trying to get him to go back, or find someone more suitable, but he is really reluctant. He insists that only he can work out his own answers. He thinks hormone therapy will give him those answers.
As for the dysphoria, well he hasn't ever been diagnosed. The gender questioning only started a few years ago. He didn't feel he was a girl when he was a child and his puberty was pretty normal, he had the usual 'male' lifestyle, girlfriends, a normal sex life, a wife before me etc. He says he felt there was always 'something missing' in his life, he just didn't know what it was. While he's had times of anxiety he's not had full-blown depression. Just never really been happy in himself and he didn't know why. Only when he started experimenting with female underwear did it finally hit him what it was. He is not distressed at being male, and he enjoys it some of the time too. He's never been a very masculine male anyway, and I like that about him. He's always been quite androgynous.
He shaves all his body hair, has long hair (and always has), wears 2 earrings, some make up - none of which I have a problem with. I absolutely hate the female underwear, if I'm honest, but I can't and don't tell him that. I'd have been happy if that was enough for him - which for a while, he said it was, but obviously now he feels he needs to go further.
Thanks again for your input.
Syl