Mere words cannot express my extreme joy being here feeling I'm with my own kind

[christinej78]

Thanks so much Christine
And for telling me I'm not too old it took me about a half a century to crack out of the shell that my parents imprinted on me but you know what they say better late than never and here I am I hope to suck in every moment of the journey.
This is all I have ever wanted to be in life and being here with everyone's loving support I now have hope for the future and has always been my lifelong dream but now that dream turns into reality.
I hope that all your dreams come true.
   love Tatiana

Tatiana,             03 May 2018

You are still a young chick and have a joyous life ahead of you being the woman/lady you already are. Life is full of obstacles; some people use them for stumbling blocks, others use them as stepping stones. I will soon be 78 years young; I started my transition in March of this year. I am enjoying every minute of it. I have had fun outing myself; so far, everyone has been supportive, even total strangers. I have found the younger generation is very accepting and supportive, unlike our parents generation.

You obviously suffered horrible abuse; no one deserves that. We cannot undo what has happened but we can go forward and never let it happen again. I am happy that your wife is completely supportive; you are lucky to have her and she will enjoy traveling along the transgender highway with you.

Find good consolers, ones that have a lot of MTF experience. Doctors are important; consolers should have good recommendations available. If anyone seems to be placing obstacles in your path through transition, use them as stepping stones to find someone else. Take charge of your journey; it's your life, your body, your future and your happiness.

Please keep a thread going with your progress. Don't be afraid to ask questions. There are folks here that have experienced similar abuse. This site is so important it should be declared a "National Treasure," which it is.

Last but not least, remember, everyone here is your friend. Love yourself.

Best Always; Love,
Christine

[Tatiana 79]

Dear Christine
Your wise words of wisdom were tremendously inspirational to me, as if sent by an angel from above.
My biggest stumbling block here is using the technology that is far beyond my ability as I'm sure of lot of you have perceived but this is certainly not enough to stop me now that my eyes have been opened.
Your words of reassurance felt like wrapping up in a warm blanket on a cold night. I am going to use this as a pivot point in my life I'm tired of living in this depressive hole and merely want to become more functional for now I really don't care what I look like or what others think I merely want to change my life as I always wanted from earliest memories. I know that I am barking up the right tree now and am receiving much therapy from you all. I don't think any one would stop receiving treatment for any disease when they know it was really working this is how I feel.
I already feel a change in my head has started as my wife would agree due to all of your acceptance and love. I am really looking forward to writing this new chapter in my life I'm tired of just stagnating waiting around for death thanks to all of you I now have hope for the future when just a few weeks ago I really had none. Please know that your words really made me feel better and I hope to get to know you better in the future.
All the very best to you love Tatiana

[Freelysweet]

Im sorry for the teary eyes guys and gals. I just say it as i see it or lived it. I do not except (3) things in my life. I dont except failure, excuses or the belief that as true human beings one is greater, superior or better then another. It is the last mentality that caused the dark ages, the jewish and american holocausts and transgendered people to have to fight to just take a pee in the right bathroom. Just so you guys no, im no victim. And you want to know what, none of us are. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses. No one can let us down but ourselves and sometimes we just need a good kick in the tush to get our minds right for the given situation. Other times we need someone to help us lift ourselves up to be on our feet to stand and be counted. I may be harsh at times, i may seem cold or in disconnect but i assure you all, i opperate out of love. Love for all my peoples. I dont care if your red yellow black or white, if your gat straight trans lesbian or if your Republican or Democrat. I have global family mentallity,  its about inclusion not exclusion and one thing i cant stand is a bully. Ive spent my life hunting down bullies and beating them up eaither in the physical world or legal arena. By the way. Im a ex SWAT Officer, know both state and federal law very well and was up for the medal of valor recieced multiple accomidations for everything from presidential duty to community service and saving of lives during critical incidents. And all of that is to say, im here for each and every one of you anyway i can be. See one who acts out of love is selfless and therefore is never controled by ego or super ego and is far beyond idd. Its a transcendence of the conscious. Perceptions change , failures become blessings of enormous wealth and knoledge. Anyway let me get off my soap box lol love you all

[Tatiana 79]

 Hello Freely sweet
sorry for not getting back to you I really appreciate your response to me and I feel it only fair that I respond to you for your kindness.

My wife and I read through your response and really feel that you're a awesomely free thinking individual for someone that had a structured past such as you mentioned as being a member of SWAT. You must have had this open minded free-spirited  individualism from youth I would imagine, but yet as we read through your eloquent words we feel the same as you my friend.
Spartacus one said, well at least the series, all who draw breath are of equal worth. I think we would both agree on this attitude.
  I think that that's why we both gravitated to this site.
All the best to your future love Tatiana

[Danielle Kristina]

Hi Tatiana, and welcome!  I'm new here too, and like yourself I find myself among my own people.  Reading other posts and getting feedback on mine has made me realize that I'm not alone and not the only who feels the way I do.  Again, welcome and know that you are not alone!!!

[Jacey Jones]

Thanks Jacey

  The second half-life of your post sounds just like my wife who is a punk rocker with a very anti normal position she loves freaks and loves unique people  and still that way today she is my greatest asset and is my flag waiver and Iove her very much . I feel you 2 would get along it maybe someday in the future we can all have a talk.

  Best wishes love Tatiana

Perhaps!  She sounds like my kind of people!

[Tatiana 79]

Hello Danielle Kristina

Thanks so much for your reassuring words. I hope your enjoying Susans very much.
It's such a vast amount of knowledge and caring people it kind of staggering.
Like you said, we are with our own kind now, ready to explore other members experiences
That can benefit us tremendously, and better yet have a feeling of belonging.

Hope to talk to you in the future. All the best to you   love Tatiana