I am seeing my Therapist again for the 3rd time This Wednesday....
Quote from: Eryn T on May 31, 2018, 10:49:45 PM
I understand that excitement completely, Christy!
I saw my therapist today, and it felt like they were trying to dig around for personal trauma and other things, but it felt like anything they asked I explained in such a way that it just made everything so clear that this is what I need to do with my life.
And my next session is the 20th, she wants to start talking about HRT then, too! Things are moving incredibly fast, and while I'm very happy about it I'm sure it's still too fast for my wife to be comfortable, so I don't really know when I might start HRT, but I hope it's soon!
She also complimented me on my nails, my eyebrows, my dress, mannerisms, and voice- I have basically 100% transitioned in spirit already, just can't do my makeup yet lol
Sorry for the very late reply,
I have been through some traumatic events in my 20's which also prevented me from doing this earlier... sort of or atleast i felt like i couldnt so we are also talking about that stuff, but i mentioned to him how everything correlates to how i am now and he gets it i think, just by talking things through asking right questions and what not
I havent dressed in girl mode yet, its abit of a disphoric thing for me, Dissociative internalized transphobia, which ill be discussing with him on Wednesday, i dont think i will start HRT for awhile, even tho we discussed it last session, and it was nice to hear, i have a myriad of things to go over with him, including coming out to my mother and just transition clothing wise its something that has made me feel quite disphoric about although i do keep finding myself looking at what women are wearing and thinking could i wear that? or ooo id love to wear that..etc so i think im close it also makes me feel disphoric to think about as previously mentioned
Quote from: Kendra on May 30, 2018, 10:40:47 AM
Over time all this will become more familiar. You are quickly gaining experience. I bet next time, if you want to answer a particular way to a question asked by your psychologist you won't hesitate as much.
HRT very gradually causes physical changes, but I found the more rapid impact was emotional, and changes to sensory perception. In my case that was very positive.
Again sorry for the late reply
I am naturally a private person IRL, and whenever i have seen a Therapist in the past i have never really talked about this sort of stuff before and it still surprises me that i managed to say it out loud like that to someone even if it felt very strange, but also very good at the time but since its kinda weird and i kinda feel abit more apprehensive about going this time, but on the other hand, i feel kinda excited to talk about it idk...
In A way, it feels very Adult of me, in deciding to finally deal with this, whatever the outcome may be