Late to the game but so happy to be moving forward.

[melissamp99]

Hello all , my name is Max and am a 54 year old woman by birth who is living as a lesbian.
Over the past three years I have been thinking about going through the change ( F to M that is.)
For years I felt like I did not fit into my own community. Butch woman , I just can not identify with as it just is not my thing.
Five years ago I met a woman who came out to me as a transman. She was looking for a role model in me and I was like, be you is all I can say.
I did not have any insight as I wasn't there yet.
Two years s ago I met Jace , a young F to M who was looking for a group of supportive friends while he made his transition.
Talking to Jace over the past two years has made me wonder if this is also my path.  I can't say that I feel like a man , as I don't know what that feels like, nor do i feel like a woman, never have.
I don't know how far I will go with this. But I feel compelled to walk this path even if it ends up being a short one.


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[Northern Star Girl]

Dear Max (aka: melissamp99)   Thanks for coming to the Introductions Forum ....please come in and and post and get involved at your own pace.  Be sure to look at the LINKS that @KathyLauren  posted in her Welcome Message that she sent to you on the first thread you were on...follow the LINKS to find more about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.
Again, Welcome to Susan's Place
Hugs,
Danielle

[V M]

Hi Max 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Devlyn]

Hey Max, funny thing about paths, you don't always know where they lead. When I followed mine I discovered that the words man, woman, male, female didn't quite apply to me. I'm a unique blend of the male and female, neither a man nor a woman. I'm confident, proud, and love myself.

If this is where your path leads you, I'll see you in the clearing with all the other unicorns. 

Hugs, Devlyn

[Melanie Jean]

Hiya Max and welcome to Susan's Place! I'm happy to see you here and hope to see more posts from you. Enjoy the ride!

[Alyssa Bree]

Hi Max!

We have a couple of things in common even though we are travelling in different directions (I am MTF). I think the fact you are now on this path is a great sign. Only those who have an interest in a path take the time to figure out how to walk it. After realizing I was probably transgender I went back and forth with it, flip-flopping.....for a while I tried living as a gay man. I went to gay bars and clubs, hooked up a few times, etc. And while I enjoyed a large enough part of it, it never felt right. The core of who I was simply was not present. There was never any doubt what the issue was - I had very little interest in being with a man AS a man....I imagined myself as a woman the whole time. Although some of the activities are the same, being a gay man with another gay man - and being a woman with a man - are two very very different things. Once I found a partner willing to let me present as female while we were together, it quickly confirmed things for me. My path to happiness became clear. I wish you all the best and I look forward to reading more!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Alyssa

[Donna]

Well Max none of us can say where the path may go. All you can do is take the first step and then the next, you will know in short order how you feel about it and chose to continue. Nothing ventured is nothing gained and really there is nothing to lose by trying.
We all grow  and progress at different rates and what is far fetched today can be reality tomorrow.
None of this is an easy desision but you will know if it's the right one, you have a start in that you identify the difference, see how that develops.
Good luck and best wishes on your adventures.