suicide

[Bdnewgirl]

Its so good to see your still around.
And like Chaunte said (I'm saying this loud) YOU ARE NOT A BOTHER. We are here to help each other.
Susans was made for support and help
Anytime you need to talk or get something off your chest we are here.
And remember you are not a bother you are now family

Your Big Sister
Brandi

[HelenW]

I'm so so glad to read your post, Julie, now I can exhale.  There's no need to apologize, it was no bother at all and, if you ever get the chance to help someone else, you'll jump right in there, I'm sure.

I know personally how things can start to look hopeless and I've come through those periods enough times to know that as long as I'm breathing there's hope somewhere.  I may not be able to see it but I know it's there.

Keep sending us your posts, If you're PO'd blow off some steam if you have to, that's why the PMS zone was created.  If you need advice, send a post or a PM.  You have a lot of big sisters here that would jump for a chance to help and I'd like to consider myself one of them.

Hang in there, you'll get thru,
helen

[Jillieann Rose]

Yes it's good to hear (read) that you are doing better.
Don't let things get that bad again. Come tell us how your thinking and feeling. When you keep things inside they just keep going round and round and growing bigger and bigger until you can think of anthing else. So don't let it happen again come talk to us Julie.
As Chaunte said

YOU ARE NOT A BOTHER. We are here to help each other. Susans was made for support and help
Anytime you need to talk or get something off your chest we are here.
And remember you are not a bother you are now family

We need each other that's why we are here.
I've been here reading this posting and now I put my two cents in.
Julie girl I'm here for you alone with the rest of the family here at Susan's.
Someone is always here to listen 24 7.
Jillieann

[chickenmanfred]

I am part of this online family (one that knows my deepest secrets). That has to be the best ive ever felt in a long time from reading that. thank you so much. you all are so kind. I wish so bad that I could repay each and every one of you for all the good you have done. thank you so much.

[Peggiann]

Glad to read your back with us,

I want to encourage you to share the links to the reference library and the Wiki with your Mom. She'll need them for researching and accepting it all and how to help you accept yourself.

Those emails are major steps. Follow through with educational material for her is also important now.

Do stay in touch never be afraid to post no matter what your experienceing. All of us here as you have been told by others will not stop worrying over another that has shared such deep parts of themselves with us.

Smiles,
Peggiann

[stephanie_craxford]

I am part of this online family (one that knows my deepest secrets). That has to be the best ive ever felt in a long time from reading that. thank you so much. you all are so kind. I wish so bad that I could repay each and every one of you for all the good you have done. thank you so much.

Hello there,

I would just like to add to what others have said and that it is good to see you here.  The other issue I would like to address is that there is "NO" repayment required.  The very fact that you are here is payment enough,

The very fact that you are here is payment enough
The very fact that you are here is payment enough
The very fact that you are here is payment enough
The very fact that you are here is payment enough
The very fact that you are here is payment enough

Sorry it's my version of the broken record technique

But seriously there are no debts owed, there is no interest charged, we all do what we do because we care about you. A movie that comes to mind is called "Pay it Forward" (I think)

I would venture that many here have experienced the same dark moments you have.  I know that I have contemplated it, and I believe that to contemplate that is OK. It's all part of the choices that we have and that we have to decide on.

yes, everything is ok. to be honest, ive been a little scared to respond. ive been reading everything. thank you so much. im writing everything into songs and poems and slowly sending them to my mom by email. ive just moved with her, in a way knowing she would be more accepting than my dad. she knows im involved with music. IM FINE.      im sorry to bother you all. i just still see that death is the only way out and not worrying of being accepted besides hiding, but right at this moment im not how i was starting this post. thank you all. i probly would of killed myself if i hadnt got a response.... im sorry... i promise ill try my best not to get that bad again, but in all honesty, i probly will. thank you. i just hope my mom is ok with it all. if she isnt, she isnt. please dont worry about me anymore. nothing is wrong. thank you. bye.

And while we are at it you don't have to at all sorry, and please don't promise us anything.  The most important thing is you, not us, we are here to help, you are there to live, and you have to live, with or without your mom.  I suffer because of the situation with my daughter, she is my only child, the most import treasure I have on this world.  But I have come to realize that she may never accept Stephanie and I can now "LIVE" with that.  It's is very hard I know but while Christians believe that god created heaven and earth in seven days, to expect others to evolve with us at the same pace is pushing things

I'm so glad you're here.

Give it time.

Steph

[Victoria L.]

I know exactly where you're coming from...

I really wish there was a way to end life without me killing myself though. Oklahoma is so dangerous though... that right now I could just go freeze myself, but no that would be too painful and long... hehe freeze? In Oklahoma? Yes... believe it or not it's cold enough to freeze!

Okay... what am I talking about?! Don't ask.

but still, I hate my life as well. It's so hard you know? There really is no hope, because surgery is not enough for me... Just thinking that that is the closest to being myself makes me think...well...horrid thoughts.

I really haven't helped have I? Sorry.

~Victoria~

[Kimberly]

You may find that 1000% perfect parts becomes less and less important as you age. ... In grade school I wanted a clone body or bust... so I did nothing.

Each of us is driven by different things. ... For some its acceptance, for others it's the form, still others it's the feeling. Most are a combination of these points. There is soo much more to this than just the body.

Take heart, its really not as bad as it seems.

[melissa_girl]

In grade school I wanted a clone body or bust... so I did nothing.

Hey.  Me too. 

Melissa

[Kate Thomas]

Know that each of us holds you close to our hearts.
Many of us have walked the same dangerous path that you have traveled.
Don't look back, look forward.
Stop only to help guide another safely along the path that you have traveled.
Save a spot close to your heart for those that you will help.

hugs
Kate

[tinkerbell]

I know this is an old thread, but suicide is an everyday problem; some of us have been there and it is not a pretty place to be,
San Francisco has a hotline which is open 24/7:

Call the hotline     415-499-1100    24 hours a day

or you can visit this website if you live in San Francisco.

http://www.sfsuicide.org/index2.html

If you live in a different state, check out this link, it has different phone numbers where you may call if you are feeling suicidal.

http://suicidehotlines.com/


tinkerbell