See with pumping the idea of blood clots scare me...Like you can get them from something as small as hickeys or like one time of sexual choking that may not even come back to haunt / kill you year and years later, so I'm like terrified of that, because I already have high blood pressure.
I was also wondering what estrogen blockers would do, or if I could even take them / if it would be safe. (I won't know until I ask my doctor next visit, in October.)
I'm just worried about phalloplasty taking away sexual pleasure, I'm not opposed to it, I just have enough issues sexually without not being able to feel anything at all. Like that's the main reservations I have about surgical transition. I want them, but they have their downfalls as well as staying put with parts that don't match. (Excluding the fact I'll never have children of my own, that one hits me most and I didn't have the funds or time or means to save eggs before I started T.)
I'm super sensitive to hormones, as well, in response to @blackcat - T has mellowed me out EXTREMELY compared to how I was before T, with and without birth control and anti-depressants, I have no need for either now, but I was like completely insane before T adjusting things the way they are now.
There's so many risks with pretty much ANYTHING you do, so it's worth taking some here and there, but sometimes better safe than sorry even if it's something you'd really like, like a normal sized penis. :T