Does anyone else hold multiple beliefs, simultaneously, that conflict with each other? I tend to separate what I believe into two distinct categories: what I feel, and what I know. Science, my own personal moral code, etc. are all things that I know, but what I feel can change from one day to the next. It's rarely rational, like believing in magic (like pendulum divination, palm readings, spells) or in ghosts, pantheism, reincarnation and such (I sometimes feel, for instance, that I may have been born female in previous lives) but it's still things that I absolutely believe in on a certain level, even when I can't logically explain it.
I like to think that my view of the universe is fairly open-minded. There are beliefs that I completely reject for myself (monotheism in general, for instance) but there are also things I consider possible, for instance the existence of spirits, or creatures greater than ourselves that we could consider gods. I don't have any reason to believe that, but those feelings are still there, and I think that, since the nature of reality itself remains elusive to us, there's no reason for me to try to suppress those beliefs, even without any evidence to back them up.
I wish I could just pick something to believe in, since religion (or a total lack thereof) can be a comforting place to retreat to, but I haven't found anything that really suits me anywhere. I hesitate to even call myself agnostic since, like I said, I do believe in certain irrational things, but those beliefs can change at any time.
I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else feels the same way. Being the only one gets lonely.
