R U OK?

[Northern Star Girl]

Just checking in, I hope everyone is ok, I have been following the celebrations in the US for the 4th July, hope you all had a good day.

Nicole

@Nicole70     Yes, most reports and posts that I have seen from other members in the USA and Canada have mentioned that there were wonderful times of celebrations  (Canada Day July 1st, and Independence Day July 4th) ... some members have reported that the very hot temperatures in their locations were difficult to deal with.   
Fortunately where I am living the weather has been quite nice and much cooler.   On Saturday June 30 I went on a day hike up into the nearby hills with my Suitor #4 ... had a wonderful day...   
Then on July 4th I hosted a potluck party... hamburgers, potato salad, veggies, corn on the cob, chips and dips, etc.... and later we had a hotdog roast and made smores over my fire pit.   
We did set off some fireworks but since it never really got dark here where I live at this time of the summer so that was a less than spectacular event.
All in all, it appears that we all had a good holiday time.

Now, Nicole....  please tell us what have you been up to in your winter weather you are undoubtedly having where you live.   Your readers and followers want to know.

Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

[Nicole70]

Rather than clog this post up with stuff about me, I have started a new thread - Now I'm Nicole.

I think this thread should be kept for times when we want to express ourselves without judgment, I need to let it all out from time-to-time and this is a safe place to do it.

[Northern Star Girl]

Rather than clog this post up with stuff about me, I have started a new thread - Now I'm Nicole.

I think this thread should be kept for times when we want to express ourselves without judgment, I need to let it all out from time-to-time and this is a safe place to do it.

@Nicole70 ... 
Dear Nicole: 
Oh no, me bad, I had forgotten what you had intended the purpose of this thread to be and I posted my  "happy" reply here today, no worries, there will be no more of my happy posts on this thread...

.... I will look for your new thread "Now I'm Nicole" and see what's happening with you there.
Again, sorry.
Hugs,
Danielle

[Nicole70]

Danielle,  happy posts are also good, sorry if I gave the impression that wasn't the idea, I would love it if anyone wants to post happy posts. Oh gosh I'm so bad at expressing myself at the moment, I don't want to upset anyone, I have a habit of being a short in my responses, I have stated before I am used to a lifetime of suppressing Nicole, and filtering my words, I'm trying hard to get out of that habit.

Please post whatever you like here, I'm happy some have found it a useful thread [emoji4]

[Allison S]

I feel fake. Like anyone's attraction towards me is not because of my natural chemistry and I'm misleading them. That's why I want an orchi and to hopefully move on with my life. I'm tired of putting things on hold, especially my name change. I just hope things work out but they're out of my control...

Sent from my SM-G930T using Tapatalk

[Nicole70]

No, I'm not ok. I think this is my last post on this forum, I won't be maintaining this topic anymore I'll leave it here just in case it helps anyone which I think it already has.

It's been helpful here at Susan's so I'll stay and read.

Bye

[Northern Star Girl]

No, I'm not ok. I think this is my last post on this forum, I won't be maintaining this topic anymore I'll leave it here just in case it helps anyone which I think it already has.

It's been helpful here at Susan's so I'll stay and read.

Bye

@Nicole70
Dear Nicole:  Oh no, now after reading your last comment, I am not OK either.   We can either suffer together or keep this helpful thread going for those who may need it. 

In any thread, response comments can come in a flood or be in a famine... but these things always come and go.
When you see a lull in interaction on your thread you can always post a helpful and encouraging comment so that others know that they can still vent their frustrations and issues on here.

But of course, it is none of my business for me to be offering you my input.  It is obviously entirely your decision what to do with this thread and if you wish you can DELETE the entire thing.

Please let me know that I have not upset you with my reply.

Hugs and well wishes as always,
Danielle

[SallyChoasAura]

Aw~ It's sweet of you to think for other people like that~

[Nicole70]

@Alaskan Danielle

Thanks for your reply, you have not upset me with your reply.

I don't know what's up with me at the moment, I was in tears last night over nothing in particular, I don't know if it's because I have come off my anti-androgens in the last three weeks (my T was too low), I don't know if it's that, or psychological, or relief from getting my name changed.

OK, saying i'm stopping all my posts was a bit dramatic, I feel foolish again, it's just how I am at the moment, i'm not used to this, i'm normally so logical and together.

[Northern Star Girl]

@Alaskan Danielle

Thanks for your reply, you have not upset me with your reply.

I don't know what's up with me at the moment, I was in tears last night over nothing in particular, I don't know if it's because I have come off my anti-androgens in the last three weeks (my T was too low), I don't know if it's that, or psychological, or relief from getting my name changed.

OK, saying i'm stopping all my posts was a bit dramatic, I feel foolish again, it's just how I am at the moment, i'm not used to this, i'm normally so logical and together.

Nicole

@Nicole70
   Thanks for getting back to me so I won't worry about you as much as I was when I read your previous post.
Please feel free to PM me if you want to discuss anything at all.
You do not have to feel foolish... we all get in our down times.... thanks for sharing.
Hugs and hugs and hugs... and more hugs,
Danielle

[Allison S]

I'm not sure. I guess I'm ok for now. Just been thinking lately about what's to come. What's after "transitioning"? What's holding me back from making my life what I want it to be?


Sent from my VS501 using Tapatalk

[Nicole70]

I'm not sure. I guess I'm ok for now. Just been thinking lately about what's to come. What's after "transitioning"? What's holding me back from making my life what I want it to be?


Sent from my VS501 using Tapatalk

Allison,

It's difficult to know what's to come, you have come so far in your transition and if like me you probably feel a thousand times better than you did before transitioning. The process gives us a strength that we probably didn't know we had, I'm sure nothing can hold you back now.

Hugs,

Nicole

[Dee Marshall]

I think there's a certain amount of "let down" in success. We work so hard to get here and now we have all this energy and time that we don't quite know what to do with.

The spy who came in from the cold in the War Between the Sexes.

[Danielle Kristina]

I'm not sure if I should post this here or not, and I would much rather post something positive instead of this, but here goes...

Today I got word that a very dear friend of mine passed away last night.  He was a mentor and a dear friend, someone I could confide in.  He would've likely been one of the first people I would have come out to.  I know he's at peace now, but I'm still heartbroken and I'll miss him for the rest of my life.

[krobinson103]

I'm not sure. I guess I'm ok for now. Just been thinking lately about what's to come. What's after "transitioning"? What's holding me back from making my life what I want it to be?


Sent from my VS501 using Tapatalk

I've been asking myself that question. I can see the end in sight and I wonder... what now? All I can say is that its exciting because I can be me in the open and that in itself is enough for now.

[pamelatransuk]

Hello again Danielle Kristina

I am sorry to hear your news; it is very painful to lose a loved one and depending on the degree of closeness, it can take a long time to recover and even when you do recover, you still possess the memories. Hopefully after the pain subsides somewhat, the memories should be mainly happy ones. I hope so.

May your friend Rest in Peace.

Special Hugs to you today.

Pamela

[Nicole70]

Hi Danielle Kristina,

So sorry to here you lost a friend and a confidant, thank you for feeling you could post here, it's for anything you want to say good or bad.

It's so hard when we loose someone, I hope you feel better soon.

Hugs

Nicole

[Allison S]

Danielle Kristina I'm sorry [emoji45]

I've been asking myself that question. I can see the end in sight and I wonder... what now? All I can say is that its exciting because I can be me in the open and that in itself is enough for now.

That's great! It's very liberating even though I'm usually shy and introverted naturally.
Your thread is definitely inspiring to me [emoji4]

Sent from my VS501 using Tapatalk

[Hikari]

I feel like a bother to my nurses they are doing so much for me but, something else is always hurting. I also feel bad about feeling bad, and know I should be thankful to have gcs no matter the pain.

[krobinson103]

Danielle Kristina I'm sorry [emoji45]

That's great! It's very liberating even though I'm usually shy and introverted naturally.
Your thread is definitely inspiring to me [emoji4]

Sent from my VS501 using Tapatalk

Thanks! I just record it as I see it. I figure its like one of those cowboy movies. Transition goes for a certain time and one day you figure its time to ride off into the sunset. What happens after that? Thats a whole new movie!