Can your dysphoira be the worst thing ever?

[SailorMars1994]

I ask beciase tbh, it seems to be for me. I still have days of higher panic over shaving as laser isn't done and I hate my birth junk.

One thing I noticed is dysphoira sucks my soul out more then anything else. Today is especially bad but I will give example and please, tell me if this is normal?

Today- infeel nothing but dysphoira and finding every self critical thing dragging me down and feeling shame about the good I do have. I have been in bed almost all day just feeling "not there". This is a dysphoira day. Emotions all over the place and nothing makes sense as I seem to be in a rut. The little bit I was able to go outside I was just super anxious

Friday- not a lot of dysphoira, actuallynhad some very peaceful times about being in my skin. Was growling over other personal issues and pst traumas that hurt me but I still felt "there" even if slightlynhuer over other things

Wednesday-woke up feeling just fine. Not sure what I did but even when I did shave in the morning I guess my mind was pretty occupied with something else? Anyways went out to breakfast, felt great, saw my counsellor and for the first time in a while didn't break down or feel "out of it" during that whole hour, did feel kinda tired as i always do when i talk about certain things. Shortly, I walked around the town for3 or maybe 4 hours looking for new work that will give hours. Went femme shopping with mom too. I was on feet in the hot heat and still felt no dysphoira, result? No matter how intense or busy day was I felt just fine and happy

It doesn't seem to be over working myself or pushing myself, and it doesn't seem to be too much about other issues that drag me down. Its dysphoira that seems to be the biggest soul crusher. Truenfor yountoo?

[qwerty108109]

Take it from me dysphoria can be a very hard thing to deal with it's a hole that I think we're all in. Just know you're not alone!

[Dani]

For many of us, yes, gender dysphoria is the worst possible condition we have. It is so bad, that even many of us think or even try to check out early. This is so unfortunate, because the treatments are so spectacular in relieving the discomfort of our dysphoria.

The amount of discomfort changes on a daily basis. Some days are worse than others, but there are no really good days,  until the day you wake up from GCS.

[SailorMars1994]

Thanks girls! And that's the thing here, I shouldn't be dysphoiric tho. I usurally pass just fine, I love and and thankful each day that I was able to get estrogen and such. But the facial hair remaining and the junk down stairs really, and inmean really bring a damper on me to the point if I am unable to snap out and smell the roses I end up feeling legit nousious (didn't spell it right, but like ill)!its tiring and annoying and I feel bad about it all

[qwerty108109]

Don't beat yourself up we all have hard days. We just have to remember to keep You're head up.

[Dani]

... I shouldn't be dysphoiric tho. I usurally pass just fine, I love and and thankful each day that I was able to get estrogen and such. But the facial hair remaining and the junk down stairs really, ...and I feel bad about it all

If estrogens were all that is needed to relieve the dysphoria, then many of us would never have GCS. There are many downsides to transitioning.

Removing the facial hair is great for passing, but the defining moment for me was when I had GCS. The genital surgery is the single most important thing that stopped my gender dysphoria. Finally, my brain and my body matched up and I feel good.